RANDOM 20 OLD EDITED WRITINGS

In My Heaven And Hell

In and out of love and life
About the people I would find
In and out of my time
To travel my ages and places

In my heaven and hell

Always to ask how could I
Listen for the right words
Driven by my want to understand

My silence and peace I own
My daylight with the sun
My night with the moon

To see where I truly sit

In my heaven and hell

To learn a bit of everyone
Written of from childhood
Never crazy over anyone

The one thought I reach for the most
How to explain
With the use of my only words

In my heaven and hell

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Only Is The Story Mine

Music is universal without language
To learn the words only a share
To know why a song exists
This feels for the meaning

Only is the story mine

Music is universal without language
Sure, how nice to find thought
Sure, how good to feel loved
Sure, a break of silence
I don't listen to seem to understand

Only is the story mine

I try a moment, is the moment mine
Sure, how warm to imagine
Sure, to care, a care to hold
Sure a break of noise

Only is the story mine

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I Will Walk Free

I give my thanks
I help with love
I send for life
Every day of my heart

I will walk free

When angry, when not
I am my own mind
I am alive
I know my need

I will walk free

This memory of place
Day to day
Night to night
Person or spirit

However I decide
What is mine to plead

I will walk free

I will walk free

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I will never write again
Never trust in love
Think life for a meaning
Care to hear of song
Feel another feeling
Look to see of why
I will never write again

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I Am At Peace

I had one childhood dream
I lived it
I played guitar and piano
I am over it, may again one day
I continued to write
I love this
Every prayer used
Every prayer was answered
I am at peace

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A Waste Of Energy

A waste of energy
Giving to give only to give
Living to live only to live
Believing anything only to believe
Needing need only to need
Wanting want only to want
Feeling feeling only to feel
Talking talk only to talk
Walking walk only to walk
A waste of energy

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Down by the rairoad tracks
There's no hope on this ride
There's no love on this earth
Don't make me be a part
Down by the railroad tracks

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Should I Stand On My Dock Again

From every wish I may have sent
On any thought appeared for my mind
Every person in and out of my life

The sky in its earth of my begin again
Made of body for now, never soul interested
Only heart to mention my way

Should I stand on my dock again

I always look for difference to reach
As always only the very breath I breathe
Could I accept less, I never could listen

Should I stand on my dock again

From every dream sent to use
From every moment meant to feel
All to complete my prayer

I see you and how to need
Through another parade of lights to believe
Sure of you, never lost to this

Should I stand on my dock again

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Psyche

Do you think I can hear everything you say
What if I don't want to know
If I were do I need what you have to say

Do you feel you know all of life
Do you know all of love too

Who said my life is to b e only one way
I been waiting no further than I was yesterday

Psyche sometimes I just don't care
If I were looking where
I'm barely alive now

Do you know I was never told anything
I never learned it seems
I don't remember right, is it day or night

Psyche sometimes I just don't care
If I were looking where
I'm barely alive now

Who said my life is to be only one way
I been waiting no further than I was yesterday

Psyche sometimes I just don't care
If I were looking where
I'm barely alive now

Psyche sometimes I just don't care
If I were looking where
I'm barely alive now

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My Love I Should Know

My love I should know
Where is my peace, my home
Where my heart beats my hold
My world never touched by earth
My sky a drift in my truth
My planet soon to experience
My mind I grow to know
My love I should know

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My Life Isn't To Share With Everyone

When everyone tries to change me
For why I won't play with love

In  my feelings sent to feel
I don't hold in my arms

My life isn't to share with everyone

In any type of need
To be touched I must please

Everyone doesn't think the same
Dream the same, wish the same
Everyone doesn't want the same
Hope the same, hurt the same

When everyone tries to change me
For why won't I be like everyone

My life isn't to share with everyone

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Understand Me

Understand me
I am who I am

How I use life
Why I love
Who I need
This won't change

Whatever said
Feelings sent
Thoughts meant
Time in use

Understand me
I am who I am

Every word spoken
Every quiet
Every mention true
Every real hold

Understand me
I am who I am

Understand me
I am who I am

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Where Is Life Good Inside

Where is life good inside
Love with a feeling to laugh
What is left behind
Thought to think of again
Long these steps I know
I want to understand

Where is life good inside
Not of another time
I heard it all, seen it all
Change in way
My rhythm, my rhyme
I am my rhythym, my rhyme

Where is life good inside
Love with a feeling to laugh
What is new now
Thought to think I haven't
I need to know
Long these steps of my own

Where is life good inside
Not of another time
I heard it all, seen it all
Change in way
My rhythm, my rhyme
I am my rhythym, my rhyme

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Who Will I Be Tonight

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now
Who was I once and why

When there are so many ways to read
Words of many reasons to believe

How thought is to perceive
How to listen of life to recive
How is love to turn

If one heart appears sound
Another is it meaning to time

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now
Who was I once and why

How errors are created
How deep of within

In understanding
Then to begin again

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now
Who was I once and why

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now
Who was I once and why

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For Christmas This Year

For Christmas I received silence
A need welcomed from my love
To think, return, remember my life
To hold no one until true
To carry these same feelings for you
To wait, to see, to wonder of you
To walk alone if need be

For Christmas this year

For Christmas this year peace
A will to continue
To somewhere i believe
Something I need
To forget why I want
Why I live today
For Christmas I received meaning
A few miracles to explain

For Christmas this year

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The gifts of surroundings I fall amid
The friendships are there I have made
The day, the music, my extra weight
No I am not happy only less afraid
For age, date and time, raisings a way
All basically seems the same
I carry who I have known as myself
I find dreams but not the one I own
I've been disbelieved when true and real
Months sent however over how I feel
My very most important please to God here
To stand where I began for awhile
To know what it's like to hurt and cry

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Why Don't You Belong To Anyone

Should you ask of me a star to swing
Ask for any need you please
What to shine with along your way
Ask to imagine love or life time
Why don't you know what to see

Why don't you belong to anyone

Should you ask to take a feeling
Make it true, make it your own
I know you want today to be yours
Ask for your way to move around
Why not a thought to send along

Why don't you belong to anyone

Why don't you know what to hear
I can't seem to find you always
Why don't you know what to read
Why don't you know where to be
Are you sure you are meant to be wrong

Why don't you belong to anyone

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The Best I Can

The best I can
I hold memory of love to hear
Treated as I would ask
I hold future with easy secure
The wait doesn't hurt me
I hold peace without need
I have been heard
I have been seen
I hold alone enough to write
I hold nothing less
I have my reasons to cry
I live within my freedom
Whatever this is
I don't hold fear from spirit
I won't wait for anything left
I hold today of love
For my lordly world
I hold today with love
The best I can

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