RANDOM 13 2010 WRITINGS MICHAEL

Is there anything missing in your arms
How you capture my love with ease
If far away you must remain
What will I do for closeness to you
I can imagine staying alone forever
If just to hear what you have to say to me
You are so timed into my mind
You are so pleasant to need, to want
If you didn't have a warm heart
I would create one

Sharpen my mind about me and you
A fleet of numbers as for my name
This wind is blown so strong today
Slow down and walk with me again

In quiet hard peace to find
I gave away how to feel
Been a ghost town for my heart
Who am I now worse than yesterday

My retreat, will always be you
My retreat, from so many yesterdays
My retreat, for how long to understand

Without you, without us
Don't know who I will be
Will my retreat always be alone

My retreat, my prayed for home
My retreat, I watch people walk along
My retreat, my feeling of wrong

There is only one baby you hold in your arms
Only one you really get to touch
When he is gone, he is really gone
You will look around, you can't go on
Living is different, does't move on

When I think about one break to my heart
The only break as I wander love
When not knowing what to do
Want is to keep needing, a wait hangs on
Something just says

I noticed this over you
Any word I write, all of my memories through
Never could I choose another to talk with
Something just says
You will be around again, always has

There is only one baby you hold in your arms
Only one you really get to touch
When he is gone he is really gone
You will look around, you can't go on
Living is different, does't move on

I destroyed pictures to move away from yesterday
To find feelings deep in my heart, to send away
Bring back memories I couldn't find to keep

I closed doors to find these open again
To walk in front of me more than behind, never beside

My voice was lost in a world of silence
My voice was lost in your world of noise

I asked of you one easy care to thank you then live on
I played video games with you near every day
I then turned around to losing you to fortune and fame

My voice was lost in a world of silence
My voice was lost in your world of noise

I laugh now in my tears
I couldn't have tried harder, I held on to writing
What to live with now I lived with then
I hold on to writing again, my melodies until you return to me

My voice was lost in a world of silence
My voice was lost in your world of noise

Love seems never real again
So a loss to my heart
You were everything and more
You were my home

At the thought of you gone
My life isn't the same
As when you were close
I notice the change

Love seems never real again
So a loss to my heart
You were everything and more
You were my home

At the thought of you gone
My life isn't the same
As when you were close
I notice the change

Love seems never real again
So a loss to my heart
You were everything and more
You were my home

Every minute I've given
Every minute I wanted from you
Now all seems to be worthless again
Every minute for you

This isn't easy for me to say
How much I feel this way
This isn't easy leaving you, never was
The struggles I carry with me

I find it hard to tell you what I think
I found it hard to tell you many times
You might not care to be in love with me

Every minute I've given
Every minute I wanted from you
Now all seems to be worthless again
Every minute for you

A word can be explained away
As a word didn't mean anything
But not the words from you for me
Not my words I played, arranged

Every minute I've given
Every minute I wanted from you
Now all seems to be worthless again
Every minute for you

I don't want to say goodbye to you
You have held my every need for love
You have been my very heart for soul
You have so forever carried me through my life
I can't see what am I to understand

Don't you notice I'm not close to you
Don't you watch for me as I do you
Don't you take the time to listen to your heart
Don't you see you are to be mine
I am to be yours

I make tonight out of my alone
I truly won't make tonight alone
Are you to cry for me as I cry for you
I am to be yours

Closing doors I will only open with you
Happy to leave then once I knew
New todays touch my life
Left behind tomorrows I had to turn around

Looking north shown tonight now calm
What can I speak will be heard
Bring the difference I need to live
I been about everwhere there is for me now

Trying to rest enjoy this peace
You come to mind, I ask for reason
Trying on how am I truly
Appears only writing cares for me
Am I waiting to feel feelings
Do I feel enough

In love in life for thoughts of why
How could I change now
To never have heard you not real for me
Lonely now more than I would like

Closing doors I will only open with you
Happy to leave then once I knew
New todays touch my life
Left behind tomorrows I had to turn around

Looking north shown tonight now calm
What can I speak will be heard
Bring the difference I need to live
I been about everwhere there is for me now

Not Anyone But You

Not anyone but you would notice my need
To find my one true friend
Not anyone but you would understand me
How withdrawn, my heart, nature
My travel of sky, my reason why
Tomorrows I climb, yesterdays I remember
How quiet most always I feel
Not anyone but you would hold, I create
The meanings to the thoughts to pass my mind
Whatever you would go through
When my light would reach for rest
Not anyone but you would be true
To find my one true friend
Not anyone but you would see me
Not anyone but you would hear
Withdrawn from universe, my love not changes
Not anyone but you

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Won't be easy to write if not of heart
Won't b easy to play with unreal thoughts
Won't be easy to understand why or where

Say what I feel of you on my needed day
Share what I can of my love, my life
Make these words show right and wrong

Turn into my favorite guys
Listen until I find my emotion to write
Become who I must remain

My heart
My mind
My thought
My wait
My wonder
This time today
Next time tomorrow