RANDOM 18 OLD EDITED WRITINGS

Following The Meaning

Following the meaning
Of my world
Listening to the rain
Counting the rain drops
Watching the wind blow
Thinking of my need
Feeling for others cold
Seen in this grey sky
Wondering about life
Uncaring for over love
Longing for my wish true
Easy about my dream
One thing after another
It seems
Warm in my heart, hold
At peace for a moment
Sleeping on I don't know
What will tomorrow be
Following the meaning
Of my world

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Could Be Just Another Night

Lonelier and lonelier every day
This is the truth I live
In must be time to feel low
Not to hold what else to do
Turned around, laid down long
I try to leave love
Only don't read everything I write
As real is not always on my mind

Could be just another night
I want to play with words
Could be just another day
I fall below my guitar
When lonelier and lonelier every day
This is the truth I live
In must be time to feel low
Not to hold what else to do

Turned around, laid down long
Only could be just another night
I want to play with words
Could be just another night

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Find The Friend In You

To find the friend in you
Often a dream never to be true
This can be the best life to use
Time to spend away from hurt and pain
A way to lay in peace

When hard to understand the Lord
When hard to understand yourself
When hard to be who you are
I don't know how anyone thinks love is easy
I don't know how anyone believes somedays

Only I may share my feelings as I see
Only I may tell you what is real
To speak honestly, to wait
I never said always patiently

Find the friend in you
I happen to also remember many tears
Many unfair people, unfair years
I continue to pray

To find the friend in me
Find the friend in you

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I Can't Trust One Soul

I can't trust one soul
A touch of gold

I'm never home
As soon as I get close
I'm never home

I'm never happy
Tomorrow a new trajedy
I'm never happy

I can't trust one soul
A touch of gold

I'm never quiet
In my silence
I'm never quiet

I'm never real
Never cared for true
I'm never real

I can't trust one soul
A touch of gold

I can't trust one soul
A touch of gold

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I Continue

Hidden away from the world
Cold better than warm
Quiet more peaceful in old
My desire held within yours
I can't wait to know why

I continue

How love often turns to hate
Futures are just a later date
I can see life will never change
Look back enough to find today

I continue

I continue to face west
Out into the ocean
I continue to become
Only who I'm allowed to be

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How Wrong Never Ends

How wrong never ends
How truth really is
How wrong never ends

Emotions are not always the answer for feelings
Talented lady here or not
One of the most rare to find
There may not be another for quite some time
And you....

With the way this world is moving
How fast the heart disappears of life
How long so little takes to be found
How wrong never ends

How wrong never ends
How truth really is
How wrong never ends

How love hasn't my meaning
This doesn't mean much anymore
How to reach today never cares

How wrong never ends
How truth really is
How wrong never ends

How wrong never ends
How truth really is
How wrong never ends

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We All Have Needs To Satisfy

I don't understand why I won't know my old friend
However our lives moved on, live now
There is no reason I can find I look
Only hard feelings lost amid my song

How I wasn't raised, I found life on my own
How I survive, live for the love I care about

We all have needs to satisfy
Missing yesterdays never to return
Rich houses, poor homes, forever tones

My Hollywood memories aren't for everyone
Those special places yet to roam, turn away
Times to turn down, refuse to change
I ask to bring around again
Light in the dark never to turn off

We all have needs to satisfy
Missing yesterdays never to return
Rich houses, poor homes, forever tones

How I wasn't raised, I found life on my own
How I survive, live for the love I care about

We all have needs to satisfy
Missing yesterdays never to return
Rich houses, poor homes, forever tones

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I Like Cloudy Skies

Another loss
In the way of my life
A noted care
Hurt I forget to understand
A few moments of peace
Throw away my heart

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My new home
Haven't I asked long enough
My new time
Haven't I prayed sincere enough
My new awake
Haven't I been to sleep tonight
My new call
I remain in my old mind
I like cloudy skies

Cold in my hands
I seek my own warmth
2000 when?
When will I be long gone
My never ending dream
I ask this to end soon
I feel thrown away by my arms

My new home
Haven't I asked long enough
My new time
Haven't I prayed sincere enough
My new awake
Haven't I been to sleep tonight
My new call
I remain in my old mind
I like cloudy skies

Another classic
A nude body roams around
Need for attention
I can't blame anyone
Here I lay to cry
Or do I laugh awhile
I imagine next time
There must be more than now

My new home
Haven't I asked long enough
My new time
Haven't I prayed sincere enough
My new awake
Haven't I been to sleep tonight
My new call
I remain in my old mind
I like cloudy skies

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In Any Day

In any day of my life
For my life, for my love
There is nothing I receive
Nothing I need or want
Everything to do
I don't pray for
Not a moment for my joy

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Who Really Gives A Damn

What did I miss to say
What did I think today
Where was I to stand
Where did I choose to land

How were my feelings held
How was my time spent
Who really gives a damn
Who really gives a damn

Now, this is common place
A return of life
Now, this is a normal way
A picture of love

Who really gives a damn
Who really gives a damn

What did I care to enjoy
I don't remember
What was I awake to touch
I don't remember

Who really gives a damn
Who really gives a damn

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Surrounded By This Boring Sky

I only follow how I feel
I never think a different begin
Where time is now and I
I only look here within

I read language changes for love
I question my want to the lord
How I was taught I stand around
How I wait, I know friendship for why

Surrounded by this boring sky

I leave what may appear as wrong
I watch what may seem as right
I move along when into the night
I find the mystery I most like

Surrounded by this boring sky

Surrounded by this boring sky

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I'm Not Strong In The Heart

You can't imagine how hard my life is
When I hold onto so many writings I find
Then I spend my only time alive to write
Finished when I will no longer see you

I'm not strong in the heart
Not as much as I could wish
Does anyone really care
I hardly care myself

Through thoughts of the most honest
Never in want to relate to anyone
Through memories I understand others feel harder
I still have to carry my own

I'm not strong in the heart
Not as much as I could wish
Does anyone really care
I hardly care myself

I know you share my sympathies

I'm not strong in the heart
Not as much as I could wish
Does anyone really care
I hardly care myself

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This World Is Not An Easy Time

My freedom whatever this is
For my years left to live
Soundless wishes then in noise
My touch together with my eyes
My mind when I think
I wonder who thinks for me
I watch my own love pass by
To place behind me now

This world is not an easy time

Do I move with my sky
Am I made for another tomorrow
I may only follow the ground
I like spanish music and rhyme
What I know
I ask too many questions

This world is not an easy time

Do I talk in my sleep
What will I see different

This world is not an easy time

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Tunes Along

Must  remember
Youth and Hollywood
Time gone through
Lost and alone
Unaware of where you are

Must I see
How have you grown
Where I stand
How I watch
The thoughts I find
The cares I don't know

Must I hear
The blackened sun
My hopes and dreams
My heart for yours
How a song begins
When it ends
Love no longer grows

Tunes along

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My Freedom Calls

From country warms to city snows
I'm lost in the shuffle
From world too hard, easy to quit
I'm gone to silence
I don't need love with kisses near

My freedom calls

From laughter to tears to wondering where
I'm over with tenderness
From need to want noone hears
In with wish for you
Life is so lame and bare

My freedom calls

Nothing of heart to share
From holds on my thoughts

My freedom calls

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If Everyone Chose To Slow Down

I can find paper to write on easy
I learned to ask when I need
A pen, a pencil, a bit to eat
A moment to hang on a little longer

If everyone chose to slow down
Less hurt and pain would be found

I can find clothing, a little light
Shoes a little hard, I make do
Other peoples worries I lean upon
Life from my call to you

If everyone chose to slow down
Less hurt and pain would be found

I can find age, understand to wait
On this new indifferent mood of mine
A rest or two grown to wake
Does laughter really mean that much

If everyone chose to slow down
Less hurt and pain wound be found

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I Don't Care For A Dream World

Several days have passed by
I wouldn't find my pen to write
Many thoughts run through my mind
I don't need new feelings to write
Songs of heart I send away

I don't care for a dream world to play
I never learned much good from this world
I still don't see much worth

I haven't spoken to anyone
For nothing brilliant to share

Several nights I sit alone and cold
I wait to become warm in my sleep
I try to find my beginnin or my end
Trouble is I never move on from here

I don't care for a dream world to play
I never learned much good from this world
I still don't see much worth

I haven't spoken to anyone
For nothing brilliant to share

I don't care for a dream world
I never learned much good from this world
I still don't see much worth

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