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"One fortune I have from my life is my memory." 1 24 09

"Where would I be today had I not experienced yesterday." 9 6 08

"There is nothing I can do about my life in yesterday. All I can think for is tomorrow and today."

10 16 08

"I am not a cruel person. I never would, never could for anything in this world." 10 12 08

"My writings and I will live on in the hearts of my truest friends." 10/20/2003

"Understand the reasons for there are the answers."09/24/07

I've lived a crazy life.

my life, my love, my happiness, my want, my need, my interests, my longings, my growth, my body, my mind, my hold, my touch, my heart, my home, my time...


Takes a lot to touch me. A lot more to keep my attention.

I Don't Know Why My Life Had To Be 

I don't know why my life had to be
Rough from childhood now and then I see
Angry moments never ending hopeful mentions
I don't know why my life had to be

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"THE WORLD IS FULL OF POLITICS."  8 18 08

"Nothing surprizes me."

"I don't want to travel the world. I just want my home I enjoy." 6 6 09

"Anguish and pain; what is the true definition?" 05 26 09
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I Followed You Around The Earth

My life is fine for today
I could live happier
I could love true

Empty forever seems my way
From when I once needed you

I followed you around the earth

I understand love in heart
I've learned much from want
Within thoughts, without
Used prayers now once befores
On a little change of course

I followed you around the world

Night was never lonely
You could have helped more
But I don't blame you

I followed you around the earth, world

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Deeper Thoughts Appear

Some of my writings are words just written
No use from real meaning
I pass these by, look into my wonder time

How young I was so in touch with you
Some of these days I just listen
What could be better than these memories

Deeper thoughts appear sometimes laughter

I can not possibly share my entire life
What I choose should say who I am true
If I have more words to say
In what is left of today

Deeper thoughts appear sometimes laughter

Tough touching my yesterdays and you
How incomplete can one person stay
Dead on my feet reading my love for you
The only feelings I can send

Deeper thoughts appear sometimes laughter

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My Only One Friend To Be Near

I spend a few moments on old writings
Some just thought with the use of you
Not sent to anyone true
Others touch how I was to feel
Where I lived, have grown again

Often when I have something to say
I won't imagine, I will, I hide in the real
What had I wanted from you
Everything you held to care, to share
What had I needed in these years

My only one friend to be near

I hide words for my reason
When I don't want to speak
I seem to know how to hurt myself
For something new to believe
I find a great lesson in my old writings
Some just thrown together to move on
What did I mean to be to you

My only one friend to be near

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I Can't Stop My Writing Life

I can't stop my writing life
I can't stop my writing love

I must listen to only who holds my warmth
In song I can remember, true my feelings

I can't forget my writing life
I can't forget my writing love

I must see where I began, stand now
Where I will live through my thoughts

My heart may continue to break
My alone may become lonelier
My emptiness may hit bottom

I can't stop my writing life
I can't stop my writing love

Whatever tomorrow could be

I can't stop my writing life
I can't stop my writing love

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There Are Waits Together

There are waits together
Hold in mind what I think

Who needs me as I need you
Both living in the same way
Who is someone for my life
To understand as I long to understand

Who wants me as I want you
A change of feelings unknown
Who sleeps alone as I sleep
Calls through time for me

There are waits together
Hold in mind what I think

Who cares for me as I care true
Who is real as I am
Who wakes in morning with me
Who dreams with me

There are waits together
Hold in mind what I think

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You and I both know there will never be another you, another me,

us by love from heart, touch and feeling.

2 13 09

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"Don't I understand how I need, how I think I should be held?
Don't I understand anything about myself?" 04 16 04
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Looking Through My Need Yet Unanswered

Looking through my need yet unanswered
I think over these past few years
Until within my life for dreaming
I continue into my wishes

I don't ask for more than I have
I wouldn't be real
Inside of who I deeply exist as

To remember to understand
To see without this sky above
I can't forget the happiest turn of my heart then

Looking through my need yet answered
Or writing as I do
For you to come true

As the day is just about over
I wait for the cool evening air
To spend some time in my thoughts of you

Is my morning to wake too
Seems to be the climb into my trees
To sway peacefully in the breeze

Looking through my need yet answered
Writing as I do
For you to come true

Looking through my need yet answered
Writing as I do
For you to come true

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Why Can't You Love Me

You can make me walk miles alone
You can make me feel down
Do your best to change me
Then why can't you love me

Why can't you love me

You ask me to live for anyone but me
Ask me to settle for less than I am
Make me think anything you want
Then why can't you love me

You forget I live
You forget I want
You forget I love
You forget I get cold
Some days so hot
Then why can't you love me

Why can't you love me

You take my happiness easy
You can stand in front of me smiling
You never cease to amaze me
Then why can't you love me

Why can't you love me

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How Does A Writer Feel About Us

To read of the thought we may need
To hear of the sound we may ask
To see from the sight we may watch
To try to believe we may become

A peace upon a place for you and I
When we won't find with our love
To hold a heart sent by life

How does a writer feel about us

When we can't live together, w won't talk
Our need to need to touch never touches us
Outside or still within us

How does a writer feel about himself
How does a writer feel about above

To read of our words
To take a writer into our arms

How does a writer feel about us

await around his time
Often we as well move upon
As igf we are his mind

How does a writer feel about us

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This Rain Moving In

This rain moving in

I feel the cold of you gone
I run away from yesterday leaving
I like my old days, my blessings
Hard to live now though

Not in the same place, no rest here
I hear in peace, I listen for sleep
Truly frightening in this world now

This rain moving in

Wish I could walk into your life
Be around you once again
Wish I could know your love again
Loneliness only makes good for a writing

Could a new song stop by from you
Could a new touch, just one from you
Could my happiness remove

This rain moving in

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Love has to be a want together
Where ever traveled, how far
How much to own never a forever
How long this is I really don't know
I do understand life as reason
A thought to carry real
A together never separated from each other
Either the law or it isn't

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"Nice music, a beginning for thought, could be a nice thought more in need for my heart." 2-13-05

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"Don't forget when I live inside of my feelings I love inside of you." 06 28 03

 

Seems So Real

Moving through this grey sea today
Watching the waves climb through my thoughts
Looking off into my distance
The white crests touch the shore
Of your hillside home

My house falls into
The deep need of a windy breeze
To help me forget how quiet I walk
When I stop by your heart

Seems so real why won't you be true now

For my love to love doesn't
For my life to live won't
For my writing to continue on

In my existence would my wishing finally be over
Would my spirit finally be found
Would I never again need to dream

Seems so real why won't you be true now

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Will you ever come home
My soul dies every day
I'm away from your love
My life cries in every way
Gone from your arms
My love doesn't know what to do
Without your love
Will you ever come home

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You Never Let Me Down

You never let me down
However you find
There will always be more to see this now

Had you never come into my life
I would have died along my sea ride
I would have never found a home to belong
For so young a child to notice me

Your love sent to hold me hard to bare
You laugh with care
You try never to show your tears
For so young a child to believe

You never let me down
However you find
There will always be more to see this now

You try never to leave me alone
Though I must be alone to notice alone
Why must I so hard to live today
For something to make sense to live easy

You never let me down
However you find
There will always be more to see this now

You never let me down
However you find
There will always be more to see this now

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There Is Nothing Easy About Me

I need more than a clue to find
My life, my love, my rhyme
These are my todays, my tonights

To keep my memories at peace
To be the greatest of all hearts
For something to write
Something I need to say

There is nothing easy about me

I need more than a game of thoughts
Not I don't love your mind
In how many times you seem to find me
Left me into my cares to carry

I need more than a story to watch
Unless most important to you again'
This is to be seen as I wait

There is nothing easy about me

I have nowhere to be anyway
Cries from within
I have every tune I would hold on to

I need more than only a song sweets

There is nothing easy about me

There is nothing easy about me

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Life Will Bring Us Together

Life will bring us together
Life won't lead us apart

How could I not be lonely
In never more than a lonely day
The love I feel for you
Only you remain away
With tears pouring from my heart
You won't have wiped away
For this darkness to live early
My quiet is still the same

Life will bring us together
Life won't lead us apart

I listen to hear from you
To watch my time pass by
To think of anyone else
I never enter this into my mind
Until I like the rain
I like the rain more than the sun

Life will bring us together
Life won't lead us apart

Life will bring us together
Life won't lead us apart

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Forever More

How was yesterday to grow today
Why did you change, give or take
To love yourself or to love me
Why didn't you understand or did you

Into your life of why you
Why was I who I was
Who I am now, who will I be

Forever more

Everyone laughs a bit, everyone cries
For who I want to hear why

Forever more or not so long
Forever more

I sit in my silence awhile
Only will my silence touch you
Or only how I think is true

Beaten around worse than a joy
Made to be lonely once together
Once from one together now made lonely

Forever more

Forever more or not so long
Forever more

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As You Fall Through My Well

Interesting how to create make believe
Blend in the real of a feeling
Use words to explain then try to understand
Watch memories play in front of me

As you fall through my well

Turn in sense at times, wonder common
Ask of why are there holds of more
One moment here the next I don't know
Sure to wait answered within funny

As you fall through my well

A let down would never be to think
To take love of so many ways
Find peace and security to lead away
Taste pits of hell never my escape funny

As you fall through my well

Funny to listen or to never hear
Funny have I really a door near
Do endings close away todays

As you fall through my well

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Won't You Notice

Won't you notice if tomorrow doesn't care
If still unreal to feel is my only way to feel

I never share this ocean with anyone but you
I never watch the sunrise or set again
I never hold the mountains in my hands
I only wish I could find you again and again

I never want to lay on the sand
Collect sea shells to count in the wind
Share love unless with my love in you
In writing or just sitting with myself

Won't you notice if tomorrow doesn't care
If still unreal to feel is my only way to feel

Why don't I dream to sail the sea
Sea the stars as beautiful with me
Reach the clouds as wonderful for me
Go ahead and brighten my life, I'm waiting

Become real not just a part of my mind tonight
See how you polish my thought
You come close then far aware of me

Won't you notice if tomorrow doesn't care
If still unreal to feel is my only way to feel

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You Will Always Be The Same

When today is today
Sitting under the rain
Set aside to write of love
I think of life, living

When tonight is tonight
Waiting for your touch
Set aside to find color
I understand warmth warming me

You will always be the same

As tomorrow is tomorrow
The sun may shine, may not
Set aside to wonder now
I know heart and mind

Weeks, months, years
All are the same
Set aside to leave alone one day

You will always be the same

As earth is earth sky is sky
Planets and I travel beside you
Moon in moon until if renamed

You will always be the same

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If You Aren't My Baby 

If you aren't my baby
How could you be my love
How can I find
The baby in me to understand
A broken heart around
How to feel
If you aren't my baby
How could you be my love

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Special Man

Special man if only you knew
The love and life you mean to me
The memories I carry
The continuing need
The tomorrows I draw you into
The colorful spiritual peace
In the image of your way
If only you would hear me pray

Special man if only you would see
The impossibility of me walking pure
The hampering of my struggles you always ease
The sun as the only warmth I receive

Special man you are this sea
The mornings always over unless you appear
The evenings crawling with wrong I call to you
Special man the sand isn't worth the wind
The motion of my mind

Special man if only you knew special man
Special man if only you knew

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No One For Me

No one for me
No one from me
No one for me

No one knows
No one cares
No one sees

No one feels
No one needs
No one wants

No one hears
No one listens
No one to any

No one watches
No one looks
No one dreams

No one for me
No one from me
No one for me

No one once
No one now
No one forever

No one holds
No one touches
No one thinks

No one prays
No one gives
No one takes

No one lives
No one loves
No one breathes

No one for me
No one from me
No one for me

No one cries
No one laughs
No one wishes

No one for me
No one from me
No one for me

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In Only One Man's Heart

I live out of a mailbox
I live out of a storage space
I live out of a freezer
Garage in the summer
How about on a hope
Or just inside of me

In only one man's heart
Deeply in love with you

The side of a curb
Behind a street sign
What about a tree house
Without a street light
In a shadow of love
Under a cloud of shade
A part from the sun

In only one man's heart
Deeply in love with you

In a room without a roof
On a bus of truths
Under the grey of flowers
Above a hedge
Below my eyes wishes
Pushing my only love
Inside of my mind

In only one man's heart
Deeply in love with you

In only one man's heart
Deeply in love with you

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My Sweet Play of Please To You

My sweet play of please to you
Where is this love of mine now
What more will I recognize
What more will you notice I want
When deep into you I must travel
Why are these times, may not be changed
Why are these feelings, may not end
What is the reason for these emotions
What will you find I won't ask for again
What needs of a dream do you see in me
What tears of a cry I won't let appear
In you or in I handsome eyes as always
My sweet play of please to you

 

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I Lay In Silence Again

I lay in silence again
Another year
I lay in silence again

In my quiet never ends
I live to be hurt
Or as I always think
To be sure you know

I spend a lot of my time alone
To write of my love for you
To be the world to your life
I run into your heart

I lay in silence again
Another year
I lay in silence again

To need you whenever I can
Noone more could be alive
No more free could I feel

To laugh and cry so well
To find my loneliness from you

I lay in silence again
Another year
I lay in silence again

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My Heart Is Tired

My heart is tired
My love is older now
My life is timed

I find awake too loud to forget
Time to rest, listen to yesterday
Walk away from today
Whatever the reason

My heart is tired
My love is older now
My life is timed

I see a friend somewhere close
My day is worn, my night
I stand where I once was
Take a look at how I feel

My heart is tired
My mind is empty of sky
No more left to write

Nothing to say is heard by you

My heart is tired
My love is older now
My life is timed

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Aren't You Sad If You Aren't My Dream

My writing of my love has become so my day
To forget my thoughts now would seem a disgrace
The time I've used and saved
My life is lost enough
I couldn't stop my heart, my desire

My exhaustion is the deepest strength I pull from
When my sky is to sleep for the night
I just begin to hear my notes of you
I can't become less confused over you

Aren't you sad if you aren't my dream

Besides playing with my emptiness is so a joy
As long as I get to drive it is a hold to you
The loneliness at times gets the best of me
Only this is what returns you to my memory

Aren't you sad if you aren't my dream

I still look to understand why your hold is real
Why your touch is the need for my feelings
I will always probably still reach for you
I just don't know, do I think to care

Aren't you sad if you aren't my dream

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To Wear A Star's Love

To so many people a star gives
To so many places, to so many loves
To so much of life, to so many lives
It's hard to wear a star's love

To feel warm and wanted ever more
To see through to the gifts of heart
Driven by the wild, in need of the want
To wear a star's love awaits how long

No more different than to begin
I think to ask, but to when

To wear a star's love could care
To see many holds of time as well
To see many thoughts of mind until
To so much there is peace to appear

To wear a star's love never near
To wear a star's love if never clear
To wear a star's love as yours once there
To need a star's love another year

No more different than to begin
I think to ask, but to when

To wear a star's love again

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Life Long Memories

Life long memories
Alive for always

Never easy to leave
Only forgotten to believe
When I walked away
Never thought I would watch again

Miss those guys smiles
Where home once was
Years before tonight
Thoughts with understanding

Life long memories
Alive for always

Scenes never to return
Love, deep heart without escape
Miss those times
Now incomplete, but real

Don't know another hold to reach into
Appear to make right the wrong
Of life long memories

Life long memories
Alive for always

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My Strings Are Now Cold

My strings are now cold
My voice is gone
My piano keys know noone

Yet I still wish
I had you for my arms
Yet I still wish
I had you for my thoughts

My body, my mind
So far apart
My eyes hurt inside
My house is rarely home

My strings are now cold
My voice is gone
My piano keys know noone

Yet I still wish
I had you for my arms
Yet I still wish
I had you for my thoughts

Where is anyone
When I am down
Feeling yet never of life
Longing as well never stops

My strings are now cold
My voice is gone
My piano keys know noone

My strings are now cold
My voice is gone
My piano keys know noone

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"My writing is not a dream. My writing is my life."
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For My Perfected Writings

The moments of you so short
The feelings from your love
I watched for something new
No way to replace this
Without the send from your thought

For my perfected writings
Never to be forgotten of your life

Am I overlooked, awake, right or wrong
I understand then I don't now
I always wait for your answers
To my silent questions sent to you
With the send from your thought

For my perfected writings
Never to be forgotten of your life

Hold me together now
Place aside my reading
Not sure of the changes to make now

Should I spend another wish on you
Should I use another prayer
Should I set aside what may become true

For my perfected writings
Never to be forgotten of your life

For my perfected writings
Never to be forgotten from your love

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My Sacred Ground

My sacred ground
Not always for everyone
Quiet and alone
Not for every song

My sacred ground
I hold my own
Would only listen for
I look, I see

My sacred ground
Another may find as harm
Another may not understand
Another isn't me

My sacred ground
Not always for everyone
Quiet and alone
Not for every song

My sacred ground
My find of life
My love heard always
My earth

My sacred ground
Not always for everyone
Quiet and alone
Not for every song

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My Only Tear

My only tear
My only prayer
My only moment
For you near
My only tear

My only tear
My defense, my heart
My only life
My thought
My only love, my need
My growth
My hold
My only tear

My only tear
My only prayer
My only moment
For you near
My only tear

My only tear
My only want, my free
My only warm
My words in song
My only care
My only years
My only fears
My only tear

My only tear
My only reach
My only end, begin again
My only truth
My only me
My only way, my only day
My only night
My only tear

My only tear
My only prayer
My only moment
For you near
My only tear

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My True Feelings Never Change

My true feelings never change


Real friends of love
On this life I live
Within my reasons
A new world won't change
Hidden around in any way


As I won't belong in many places
My choice is the same
If I am wanted, If I am not
Hopelessly on you or I


My true feelings never change

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What is the sign of just love? 7-7-04

 


My Thoughts Are The Same

My thoughts are the same
Life is the same

I shouldn't be alone
I should be with you
I should have your love

What you feel
How you see and hear
Time hasn't changed

My thoughts are the same
Life is the same

Every time I wake
I hold on for you
No change to my love

Everytime I reach
I reach for you
My future again as you

My thoughts are the same
Life is the same

My thoughts are the same
Life is the same

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Simple Heart Life

Simple heart life
Easy love to believe

My treasure from you
My cold and hurt
My warm the same

I asked for your touch
I received your hold
I asked for your time

Simple heart life
Easy love to believe

My thought nature of need
My want for your words
My awake in the world

My way to survive
My await my peace
My meaning to complete

Simple heart life
Easy love to believe

Simple heart life
Easy love to believe

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Everything you say is true
Every feeling I feel
Why I come to you
What I ask of you
How I live
How I breath
Every reach I may perceive
I don't begin today
To watch my joy leave

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I will never be at a loss for words to write with.

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My Pretense, My Childhood Reality

My pretense, my childhood reality
I know you in the life you create
My pretense, my childhood reality
I am not unable to recognize the sky

When the sky doesn't meet the ground
Truly to miss nowhere inside
What my air breathes or doesn't of you

My pretense, my childhood reality
Often years go by as where have I
My pretense, my childhood reality
Everyone grows older won't I

My todays roamed I never change much
Loyal to my touch, your pleasure mind
In longing after longing to decide

My pretense, my childhood reality
I know you in the love you play
My pretense, my childhood reality
I know what my heart must say

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From The Past Few Years

From the past few years
The past few years of my life

All of the dreaming I lived
The wishing, thinking of someone
With you always in my mind

Only feeling how bad I needed
Only being with myself every evening
Looking through all of these people
You should have been here

How many days I never touched for anyone
How many times I should have, but I wouldn't
How often I believed in something good to come
Gonna come my way from you but didn't

To see you close for the first time
Watch you tell your part of life
As though it was mine

Why months and months can go by
Wanting and wanting to die
Only to be told I wouldn't go to heaven

From the past few years
The past few years of my life

You should be here
With all of my days, todays together
After all of the nights I waited, the fight for you
You should have been there

You tell me the difference between like or not
When all I cared about was right or wrong
For the love I still need after all of this time

You say what a warm or cold turn there is
If the turn returns to happen again
I can't wait to hear another good joke for why

From the past few years
The past few years of my life

Break me more to even some score
I stand with you, what is less than human
Claim under the deep of your soul
I still carry your spirit

From the past few years
The past few years of my life

From the past few years
The past few years of my life

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My Love Still Calls To Yours

My love still calls to yours

Amid the stones of this sea and shore
Where the town isn't mine I know
Laying in the grass has grown old
Watching the sky isn't new

To carry my peace of heart to sing
To set down my hold of you I don't

My love still calls to yours

By some falling leaf, broken tree limb
Some warm ray of the sun
By some tear you may cry for me

My love still calls to yours

As you follow your own path
I still hope mine leads to you again

Amid the stones of this sea and shore
Where the town isn't mine I know
Laying in the grass has grown old
Watching the sky isn't new

My love still calls to yours

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Never To Change

Never to change
Never truly away from you

I wish I had you to look at again
Just to play with your love
I could see in your eyes so well
Living within your arms

To think about you the way I have
To wait through these years
If for your way of life to show
How you still love me

I wish I had you to look at again
Just to play with your love
I could see in your eyes so well
Living on my fountain in your arms

I try not to miss you
I try not to forget
With today as all so lonely

Never to change
Never truly away from you

How you captured the elegance of me
Within the capture of elegance in you

I wish I had you to look at again
Just to play with your love
I could see in your eyes so well
Living on my fountain in your arms

Never to change
Never truly away from you

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Could My Clouds Be Touched As Yours

I never stopped planning your tomorrow to mine
My tomorrow to yours would work out
With anything to dream I wouldn't begin
Could my clouds be touched as yours

Days seem so easy to find
More will be around
I will again look at the year
As was one here just now
To write of you as I have
Miss you as I did now
Nights alone aren't to change
My thoughts continue to write

I never stopped planning your tomorrow to mine
My tomorrow to yours would work out
With anything to dream I wouldn't begin
Could my clouds be touched as yours

One turn of my moments alive
I may realize you are gone for always
I only know something inside holds this wrong
You are as real as I know you should be

The older you age, the more I see
A matter of my life and my love or yours
Lord this torn out heart of mine has no choice

I never stopped planning your tomorrow to mine
My tomorrow to yours would work out
With anything to dream I wouldn't begin
Could my clouds be touched as yours

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I Been Living For You

I been living for you
Just living for you

I don't want to go anywhere without you
I don't want to take time to hear

I don't want to see anything after you
I don't want to change

I been living for you
Just living for you

I stayed in one small room about you
Didn't talk with anyone, don't need to

I been living for you
Just living for you

I been living for you
Just living for you

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I watch, write and I wait.

 

Just Don't Only Be A Memory

Do you care if I miss you
I don't forget you
Look at how I loved you
Carry my tears within you
Think about me awhile

There was noone I needed
More than you
Noone, a song could choose

In this hurt I can't understand
What kind of feeling left with

Just don't only be a memory

This is the rest of my living
Today is the rest of my life
Everywhere is the rest of my loving
Tonight is the rest of my love

Just don't only be a memory

You take with you my thought
You take with you my heart
You take with you
Something I could never find
But in you

Just don't only be a memory

Just don't only be a memory

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I Want My Story Heard

The sun and the silence
Summer in my peace
My plea to you was heard
I then listened to you
I want my story heard

Watched of every picture to go by
Turned of every way
Played with any wish
Thought for any dream
Begged to differ many times
Reason for change of love

Taken never of every song
Refused many lives
Timed for you
Believed for true
Fought until tonight
Treated cold I remained warm

My plea to you was heard
I then listened to you
I want my story heard

I then listened to you
I allowed you close
I let you into my life

The sun and the silence
Summer in my peace
My plea to you was heard
I then listened to you

I want my story heard

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In July

In july
If I won't have you to calm my spirit
If you don't recognize me as real
How that makes you feel
When there go my years of so many thoughts
All I prayed for will remain unanswered
To hold you gone as my end of summer
In july

In july
If you won't listen to me
I will only hear how I lost you
Over the deep sea of my traveling anywheres
My walk to live, to reach for you
Along side of your wisdom is so true
Sadness will be my only ride
In july

In july
In my sky, my reason, my right of heart
I am the melody you are
Turned away from you as only memory
I should be crying this rain today
The sun won't shine warm for me
If in july you don't want me
In july

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Happy Inside

Happy inside, my heart full
When I let go, when I can
Never to end, my feelings show
Locked away in my alone

Forgive my endless longing of wish
I try to remember to forget
You were my world

How I lived, needed you real
How I needed your answer true
Where then were you, are you

Happy inside, my heart full
When I let go, when I can
Never to end, my feelings show
Locked away in my alone

I remember when you handed me your life
Given love when no other could think of
I realize I would not be here today
When I must say my prayers for you

And how empty I was outside of your love
Though how often I believed in you
To wait to hear from your love again
This wait I never thought of much

Happy inside, my heart full
When I let go, when I can
Never to end, my feelings show
Locked away in my alone

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The Only Change I Need

The only change I need is you
The only peace
The only rest I need is you
The only home
I still need

As I will carry anger over you away
I feel the sun of today
Though I notice the bright outdoors
Inside of my thoughts I stay
I still don't see a reason
To want more than you
If believing is all I have left again
I've done all I can to bring you true

The only change I need is you
The only peace
The only rest I need is you
The only home
I still need

The night will be yesterdays evening
I won't care as long as I write
As long as I dream of you real again
To look for the missing moments of us
When I read my words
I am held by the same prayer
The only faith I ask for
There can be no other tomorrow

The only change I need is you
The only peace
The only rest I need is you
The only home
I still need

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On This Day Of Thinking Of You

On this day of thinking of you
My love becomes deeper

On this day of thinking of you
Seems so a cry for you to understand
When if whatever you do
I will always want you close again

In the hold of my arms peaceful
As long as I continue to write
Listen for the touches I may need
For my heart

On this day of thinking of you
My love becomes deeper

In my next tear of joy
From all of my words in this world
Meaningless in the night
My mind still on you
True life doesn't change anytime

On this day of thinking of you
My love only becomes deeper

On this day of thinking of you
My love becomes deeper

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I Never Enjoy My Melody Anymore

The life and love I feel as my own
As night here in silence
A place I wait to lay alone

I never enjoy my melody anymore

In my peace to my mind, time
Warm and happy with my care
My typed touch isn't for anywhere

I never enjoy my melody anymore

I ask to be alive in my alive
My trust not to be broken
An end to love around this corner

I never enjoy my melody anymore

Used to be you in my melodies
Used to be you in my travels
Used to be you in my emptiness

I never enjoy my melody anymore

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I Don't Have A Change Of Time

It's hard to set you aside
Believe us not to be true
I've always wanted you

I can't tell myself it's wrong
When you touch me how you do
You're so good to love

I don't have a change of time
I like more changing yours to mine
Life is all I'm trying to say

Even if I go to break free of you
You come along to stop me

If I am meant to be in love with you
Should I again long to leave
Longer and longer the days, the nights
At the turn of any light

I don't have a change of time
I like more changing yours to mine
Love is all I'm trying to say

Never do you need, do you need me
Are you the only body and mind
spirit in time for me

I don't have a change of time
I like more changing yours to mine
Life is all I'm trying to say

I don't have a change of time
I like more changing yours to mine
Love (life) is all I'm trying to say

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I Promised Love Forever

I promised love forever
In my deepest loneliness
My greatest joy
My gift to you
My forever hold
Whatever you want
Whatever you need
Time is on me

I promised love forever
I won't change you
Gifts must be given thanks for
This earth is short lived
I always get my say with you
I always get my way
Never at an end for words
Never at an end for life

I promised love forever
I won't change now

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I waited all of my time to hear from you
What you have to say I know as true
Until I waited to feel what you feel for me


I thought for all of these years you would send your love
Never had I changed my mind, my life, my love
Was I really over with you, am I now


Anything was always my want to be together
I couldn't watch until you sent your hold real
Love does anything but never turns away


If I can't have you now will I still need a change
I think of you again sure you will touch my tonight
Something new only I would recognize as mine

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If Only You Would Care

If only you would care
What I cry for most to be heard
I don't have other eyes to see with
I don't have other gifts to want

I understand I am as anyone
We try to live our feelings
We ask only to share
We need only as ourselves

My dark room can be my lock away
My I don't care, meanings to see
Listened to places of all kinds
The silent, the sorry and the peace

If only you would care
What I cry for most to be heard
I don't have other eyes to see with
I don't have other gifts to want

Each and every reach I make
In you I find my answers real

If only you would care
What I cry for most to be heard
I don't have other eyes to see with
I don't have other gifts to need

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My Writing

My writing has taught my difference
My writing as real, as mine

When often I am unknown
To my thought
When often in how I see, I want
I find love in my reason
In my writing

When often I am nothing to anyone
I won't listen, I won't care enough
One thing noone may touch
I will speak how I feel

My writing has taught my difference
My writing as real, as mine

If I must be held for awhile
My writing becomes my arms

My writing has taught my difference
My writing as real, as mine

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When I Am So Lonely For You

I may be talented
I write of anything I see
You are gone

I can turn dark into light
I can believe in right
Bring alive stationary time

The cold truth of an unreal plant
I can laugh at my imagining mind
If the pleasure is mine

When I am so lonely for you

To break inside of another empty day
The night to be over without you
What I need is usable faith
Trust brings you true now

When I am so lonely for you

My love seems to be lost
The sound of my life
The beauty to rest my heart
The hope, the prayer

Do you think the meaning of my happiness
is only to keep me in my sadness

When I am so lonely for you

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When March Is Over This Year

When march is over this year
Will you then be near
Will I have to say another prayer
For why would I need your love
If I could want so many others I would
Isn't this enough to bring you true

When march is over this year

When march is over this year
Will I be with feelings to feel
In a heart I don't hold
A trust in you on my skys hold
How will I expect the clouds
A gift I use in your tears
Always another melody, line to write

When march is over this year

When march is over this year
To wake for the sun to shine
Will I be talked away from you
The sea to watch as beautiful
Where will I be

When march is over this year

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From Wherever I Stand

From wherever I stand
I think of you
In whatever I need
However lonely I become
However empty within my heart
Never a moment do I forget
This so absence of your love
The sky I truly live
I take you with me in everyone
In silent peace, angry emotion
The clouds may speak
I wouldn't hear
I have something to say is real
In every season to change
Under any tree I lay
From wherever I stand
I think of you

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My Joy Of Space

My joy of space
I know the truth
My feelings for you
To be true
Should this sea
Drive a new turn
Never to run from you

My joy of space
I hear your thought
Your life
The sun won't change me
My need for you
To be real
Within my quiet place

My joy of space

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If You Love Me

If you love me
You will return to our beginning
Bring our closeness together
Forget this time, remember why
How we feel for each other

If you love me
You will miss me as I miss you
You will cry inside unreal
Unfair, how wrong, bcome confused

If you love me
If you really love me

If you love me
I won't be alone much longer
You will find your way to me
I didn't ask you to stop your life

If you love me
If you really love me

If you love me
You will miss me as I miss you
You will cry inside unreal
Unfair, how wrong, become confused

If you love me
If you really love me

If you love me
If you really love me

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My Peaceful You

My peaceful you
I never let go of you
My peaceful you

How I need won't end
Why I hurt, how I feel
My way as me
For how long now

My love for you, my move
How I fall to sleep, I wake
How I imagine, how I dream
I am real

My peaceful you
I never let go of you
My peaceful you

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Stories Of My Time

Stories of my time
Poems as just lines
Songs notes from my hands
Words to hold my rhymes
Togetherness from memories
Alone now as many times
My life now and behind me
Looking to adore, adored to adorn
My life now and once before
Stories of my time
Poems as just lines

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To Have Known You

To have known you
To have an old memory to turn into
To watch an old love for thought
To carry within my hold tears I like
By you, by today to keep me true
To travel my life in words warm
To color my mind a believer
To give thanks for you, my hard times
To notice the easy, yes to see
To continue to have a heart
To have someone to sing along side of
To have you here more so than less
To be touched by alone in the right way
As you touch
To have known you

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No Deeper Loneliness

For the past ten years, more
From Hollywood to Malibu
My southern shore
From the first day of you
All memories and life held true

No deeper loneliness
Will I learn
Has given worth to my world

I waited silently in my writings
My thoughts not so famous
Famed beyond reason
A chosen few touches in song
The way to explain my moments

No deeper loneliness
Will I learn
Has given worth to my world

Safe within any way I could wake
Torn on some feelings
My greatest joy still you

No deeper loneliness
Will I learn
Has given worth to my world

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"I never think of love unless given from my song for my song. Is this your love?" 6 20 03

"Bits and pieces of thoughts are just as valuable as the whole in the same it is not easy to look into every one of your memories, but all are available for viewing."
6 20 03

"The most valuable thought of your love and life is the most valuable thought of your love and life."

6 20 03 Treasure your thought.

"If the only yesterday for me is from you then upon your love for tomorrow is where I stand today."

"If the only yesterday for me is you would I choose to dream of another day as true?"

"Songs of tomorrow don't wait for me to listen to songs of yesterday or do they?"

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I'm Just Trying To Understand You

Every step of my way
Something from you comes along
In silence never to hear you
I still hear from you

I'm just trying to understand you

Every one of those lonely days
From my first time of knowing you
The changes to my thoughts
Every move I ask from you
In time I find
Something new on my mind

I'm just trying to understand you

Why I remain alone
Why I chose the ocean as home
What keeps me in faith
What keeps you true
Before everyone loved you
Why I do

I'm just trying to understand you

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"I never think of love unless

My Missing Years

My missing years
The missing years
I'm looking for
My missing years

What would have been
Seeing what you changed
Stepped up to rearrange

I can only ask
Return to me
Everything I wanted
Everything I received
Then taken from me

My missing years
The missing years
I'm looking for
My missing years

When I could say nothing
The hours gone
My devotion to you
The days I waited
So sure of you
Those nights alone

I never forget
I never leave
You were my life
When I lost you

My missing years
The missing years
I'm looking for
My missing years

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"What the sky doesn't show may not be yours to know." 12 18 03

All For Michael's Love

All for Michael's love

I wrote on napkins
I wrote on paper bags
I slept in my car
To wake alone again
I waited for him
To show something new

Let me see
He still thinks of me
Let me hear
How we would continue

Return to our thoughts
Take a few steps back
Return the years lost
If only forward again

All for Michael's love

I remember this always

How I chose the ocean
How I still create loneliness
How I never gave up hope
How my trust remains
How my peace calls

How I never change
Should I try, not right
Something keeps crying
My life would end
Through today
Into tonight
I just can't believe wrong

I wrote on napkins
I wrote on paper bags
I slept in my car
To wake alone again
I waited for him
To show something new
All for my heart

All for Michael's love

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You Will Find More For My Want

You will find more for my want
It's just a matter of time

As these minutes of my heart go by
I look to see if there is a sky
I don't know loneliness is the reason why

I think something is for my eyes
Love to see you must be one thing
A hold of a call to quiet
Beyond the need for life

You will find more for my want
It's just a matter of time

Tonight won't last forever
Writing you into my sound as mine

You will find more for my want
It's just a matter of time

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Moving Forward In The Past

Moving forward in the past
Not easy to then turn back
Hands of time on another planet
A mystery of you keeps my mind active

Moving forward in the past
Thought so hard to let go
I haven't been close to you fo so long
I still thought of you in my writing

Moving forward in the past
Unable to break through

Moving forward in the past
Should I watch or listen to you
I seen it all, heard it all now
Learned what missing you means more

Moving forward in the past
I take a moment of silence
I've written about anyone I cared for
Never as deep as you

Moving forward in the past
Unable to break through

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I can't follow you around forever

I can't return from where I came

On air letters run

Missing persons never found

I'm hard to please

The music must be right

Not only sound

10 4 08

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That One Special Tune From You

That one special tune from you
Not my wish unless
That one special tune from you

Not what I'm living for
Not what I want to hear
Not what I watch to see
Not what I want to need
Not my thought when following you
Not my like when I liked you

That one special tune from you
Not my wish unless
That one special tune from you

Not who I cry over
Not who I can't live without
Not who I want deep within
Not what anyone could ever send

That one special tune from you
Not my wish unless
That one special tune from you

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This Mind Of Mine

In this mind of mine did I ever forgive you
I left that line when I left you
Said I was through, never through over you
In this mind of mine

This mind of mine can't think any deeper
I'm at an end to my heart
I've heard all, seems everything tonight
I'm at an end to my heart

This mind of mine, I began a story
A long time ago has returned
To find my love I seek every bit of darkness
To lead me right into your arms

In this mind of mine did I ever forgive you
I left that line when I left you
Said I was through, never through over you
In this mind of mine

This mind of mine must say how I feel
Once I loved you with everything inside
I had to forget though I never did forget

This mind of mine takes it hard over you
Anything I think becomes you again true

In this mind of mine did I ever forgive you
I left that line when I left you
Said I was through, never through over you
In this mind of mine

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24/7

24/7 I loved you
I don't need this memory again
Truth and life explains all touch
I don't want to return here again
I have so little time to rest

24/7 I liked you
I asked for what you had to give
There was no coincidence

24/7 I wished
I turned away my own wish
There was no mistake
There was no dream
24/7 was real

24/7 as I sit here now
As I will again

24/7 I lived you
24/7 I liked you
24/7 I wished
24/7 was real
24/7 with you

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Is This One Of Those Days

Is this one of those days
When I believe what I don't see
How to feel hasn't my own hold
Where to be isn't where I am

Is this one of those days
An old friend I love so
Will he finally appear real
One of those ways
I know you exist
One of these days

Is this one of those days
The tune is in peace
The words are to understand
The show doesn't come true
I will only think it will

Is this one of those days
An old friend I love so
Will he finally appear real
One of those ways
I know you exist
One of these days

Is this one of those days

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One Thing Sure

Tired of music, word for thought
This world as it is to feel lost
Worn in life, what I see never different
I don't care to speak anymore

I don't need why, how to touch
I don't need not free to want

One thing sure
I never move on

Today with a lot of yesterdays today
Tomorrow will follow through the same
Once written, drawn on care to show

I don't need why, how to touch
I don't need not free to want

One thing sure I hear
I never move on

I can't tell how many times I give my heart
Friends a new home with the old
Should I remember you to love you

I don't need why, how to touch
I don't need not free to want

One thing sure I know
I never move on (events around you)

I don't need why, how to touch
I don't need not free to want

One thing sure I know
I never move on

One thing sure
I never move on

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Tired Of It All

I'm tired of Christmas and the world
Tired of life, the young, the old
Tired of love for all reason

Tired of it all

I'm tired of time and waiting
Tired of faith and religion
Tired of feelings and emotions

Tired of it all

Colors be still, may be touching
Thoughts be still, may be needed
Wants are old, a misunderstanding

Tired of it all

Tired of hot and cold
Tired of the sun
Tired of clouds
Tired of the snow

Tired of it all

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I Don't Want To Break The Dream

I don't want to break the dream
Could bring unhappiness seen
To touch what may be real
This could be wrong unheard

Wonders may cease
Feelings may change
Quiet may break

This peace may disappear
A wish to come
Heart may end
A care to run along

Wrong tears could fall
Writing may end

I don't want to break the dream
Could bring unhappiness seen
To touch what may be real
This could be wrong unheard

This peace may disappear
A wish to come
Heart may end
A care to run along

I don't want to break the dream
Could bring unhappiness seen
To touch what may be real
This could be wrong unheard

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Where Will I Be

Where will I be
Should I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Could I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Should I stay in today
Where will I be
As I laugh life away

Why should I understand you
How is this written
I try here now or do I
How long may silence play

Where will I be
Should I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Could I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Should I stay in today
Where will I be
As I laugh life away

Let me begin to decide
How do I run evil
Evil into the ground
Walk in peace
More than love, more than home
More than travel

Where will I be
Should I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Could I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Should I stay in today
Where will I be
As I laugh life away

The greatest blessing
Could I imagine
For once, for all and forever


Where will I be
Should I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Could I leave tomorrow
Where will I be
Should I stay in today
Where will I be
As I laugh life away

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Money Still Speaks Louder Than Love

Watching these changes from time
Back seat drivers once a day
Coming round through places I stay

Money still speaks louder than love

I move on to how I live
I wonder what I need
Wanting again what do I believe

Money still speaks louder than love

Most of life I run around why
Where I try not to lose a thought
I don't care much about anything

Money still speaks louder than love

Funny music travels on
I won't return to some of now
I won't become personal

Money still speaks louder than love

Money still speaks louder than love

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I Don't Know Why

I don't know why
At war with you
Peace always broken

I don't know why
Care at no time
Now seems missing

I write of love so many times
Life touches in so many ways
Held with heart deep within

Heard by you far away
Someone to talk with never close
Torn by courage to continue

Often withdrawn from hope
Often a little too unknown
Liked very little

I don't know why
At war with you
Peace always broken

I don't know why
Care at no time
Now seems missing

Forgiveness doesn't change anything

I don't know why
At war with you
Peace always broken

I don't know why
Care at no time
Now seems missing

I don't know why
At war with you
Peace always broken

I don't know why
Care at no time
Now seems missing

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I can only pray you treasure me
Once again
Be true, last time I think
Be you, must be real
I wouldn't see you different

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Only Time Comes Around Again

A car of lonely silver
Feelings of my choice stolen away
I give to no end, choose not to receive
Thanks never to reach my hands
A gift of lonely, less than a friend
When to realize all can be bad
To receive my need over
Only time comes around again

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Special Touches

My memories mean the world
To five years old, grown on now

Special touches mean the world
Thoughts, gifts, eternal beyonds

My memories mean the world
How I would miss you, now

My feelings never to spend
Days now gone can return again

Special touches mean the world
Thoughts, gifts, eternal beyonds

Sometimes, somewheres, everywheres
All can come around again

Don't move me if you hold no care

Prayer, understanding, time

Special touches mean the world
Thoughts, gifts, eternal beyonds

My memories mean the world
How I would miss you, now

Special touches mean the world
Thoughts, gifts, eternal beyonds

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I Only Clean One Window

Left to wander around
In the sad thoughts of society wrong
A night doesn't go by
Turned and stolen from

It's hard to believe
Is there any right in life
This love I build every day
The same to lose in why

I only clean one window in front of me

I can't tell of time
The light out of this darkness
The fan cools with clouds
Closed in thoughts hurt to imagine

Barely to wake in the morning
Another cross sent to bare
What I do to continue
I only clean one window

I only clean one window in front of me

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Page after page of questions
There will never be good enough answers
World after world of new lessons
There will never be good enough reasons
Time after time of wisdoms
Intelligience is a matter of emptiness
Breath after breath of spoken air
Noone has the need to hear
I could see if real change came forth
Today hasn't moved very much
People think they know all
Judge the heart, mind and soul
People think more than should
The sky could be a brighter tomorrow
People will destroy that with sorrow

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Weather doesn't change the color of trees
Seasons don't turn what autumn brings
Palms may sway with the signs of sea
Sounds I ask for never near
Tell me something I want to hear
I may smile a bit

11 24 06

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I Will Always Believe In Us Together 

I will always believe in us together
Together from a lifetime of prayer
To watch from all sides of time
My need to call to you again
I haven't lost my love for you
I will always believe in us together

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My Life

Picking clovers from my yard
Chasing fire flies for my jar
Dreaming of living somewhere abroad
Running from time as it was
Now in sure again to want you true

Asking for what I would never have
Watching who I might want to become
Calling for freedom never found
Hearing only what I wanted to hear
Now in sure again to want you true

Friendships and travels here and there
Cities and country wasting air
Homeward bound to something clear
Fighting with told how to live
Now in sure again to want you true

Learning more than I could take
Sharing why as not a mistake
Fearing old with young without choice
Working at anything next to new
Now in sure again to want you true

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My Writing Drive

My writing drive
My ocean life
My writing drive

My time away
My alone from sight
My peaceful love
My will to live
My work at heart
My look around
My today, memories

My writing drive
My ocean life
My writing drive

My still wants
My needs over
My need continues
My home of hope
My feelings tried
My past somewhere
My difference to recognize

My writing drive
My ocean life
My writing drive

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How Could I Forget You

If you are my Elvis Presley
How could I set you down
If you are my sweetness
How could I walk away
If you are my need inside
How do you think I live today

How could I forget you

If you are my typewriter
The paper I thread inside
How could I leave you behind
If you are the words I write
The tune I hum, my reason
If you are my waiting moments
How could you hear less

How could I forget you

Would you expect I touch you
Would I know any different

How could I forget you

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Drive On With This Story

Drive on with this story
This story of my song

I sit writing of my life
Outside of the arms I belong
Counting days of you gone
Far away from reasons

My home is still empty
My love, my need I live
To grow continues my way

Drive on with this story
This story of my song

With this world in front of me
To be at peace in your heart

I sit holding my want
Outside of the arms I belong
Counting days of you gone
Far away from reasons

Drive on with this story
This story of my song

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Talking To You Now

Talking to you now are you, are you not listening

Reaching into the quiet behind your fences
Along side of the ridges of never come true
Living upon these palms I sway with feelings

Talking to you now are you, are you not listening

This is another worn out day into how I feel

Talking to you now are you, are you not listening

How much do I still linger for you, I tried
Standing with who is ruling who tonight
Your brown eyes with my hazel wonder real

Talking to you now are you, are you not listening

This is another worn out day into how I feel

Talking to you now are you, are you not listening

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Don't Forget

Don't forget I am thinking of you
Living in the way of my writing
Feeling my feelings through
Learning of your thoughts
Growing in my days
I still feel these longings

Don't forget, don't forget me

Don't forget I travel you
Understanding your peace
Expecting you as I should
Asking you not to change
Inviting your heart into mine
Sleeping your quiet of love
My greatest life is within your life

Don't forget, don't forget me

Don't forget my wishes
Sharing my prayers for you
My only home I use on you
Never a missing moment, hope

Don't forget, don't forget me

Don't forget, don't forget me

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Did Anyone Care Who I Was

I spend all of my days
Walking with feelings I use
Should I cry my want is true
Should I remain with my love
Who could I have become

Did anyone care who I was

To believe in time as real
The need I live
My alive for everything I think
Who could I have become

Did anyone care who I was

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 What A Life

What a life just looking through time
Reaching never to reach right
Trusting in life after sleep
Trying to grow unreal need
What a life just looking through time

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Something Inside Of Me

Something inside of me
I never can leave

I use every day of my life
Wanting to know my love
Needing a friend I trust
Trying to say how I feel
Never reaching you here

Something inside of me
I never can leave

I send my soul
A hold of my own wait
Left alone and wrong seems
I use every night of my time
I won't believe different

Something inside of me
I never can leave

Something inside of me
I never can leave

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I'm Tired Of Hearing About Love

I'm tired of hearing about love
Being in or out of love

With so many places I've never been
To one place with you was enough

I see so many faces I live without
How could I live without you

I'm tired of hearing about love
Being in or out of love

I'm tired of hearing about love
Being in or out of love

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Who Could Be Like Me

Who could be like me
My love to write my love
Who could be like me

Born with a place for truth
Born with a plastic spoon
A golden knife for noon

Who could be like me
My love to write my love
Who could be like me

Torn from a broken home
Broken my life to roam
Hard to live right now

Who could be like me
My love to write my love
Who could be like me

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I Never Hope For More

I never hope for more, my way of you
I never grow for more, my day of you

The reason of my love is for you
The time I spend with only you to hear
With only you to seek my life
I have so much want to continue to write

I find a depth of heart to beat in you
I find the color to the sea I must live
I find my warmth inside answered true

I never hope for more, my way of you
I never grow for more, my day of you

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Memories Of You

Memories of you
Hard to let go
I turn into other tunes
Only again to write of you

Don't know where I want to be
Who I could see, think of as true
I'm not one to pretend
Heart, warmth, soul travel

My spirit of life moves me to you
My writr of mind plays real time

Memories of you
No need to change
I turn into who I am
Only again to say

Aren't you missing someone
Old friends never end
In memories of you
Memories of you

Memories of you
Hard to let go
I turn into other tunes
Only again to write of you

in

Memories of you
No need to change
I turn into who I am
Only again to say

Memories of you
Hard to let go
I turn into other tunes
Only again to write of you

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I'm Always So Far From Home

I'm always so far from home
Wherever I live, I roam

There is always you missing
Why should I understand
This as the way of my love

My life is passing me by
The only good a writing found
Using my thought on you

I'm always so far from my home
Wherever I live, I roam

How dark is the sky tonight
Was the sky the same yesterday
Will the morning to come be lonely

I'm always so far from home
Wherever I live, I roam

I'm always so far from home
Wherever I live, I roam

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Timed Perfect

Timed perfect, pure, simple
Very little change to understand
I pass through your life again

Taken in by days of warm
Once how I found your touch

Timed perfect, pure, simple
Very little wait to expect
I pass through your life this way

Torn by feelings I had to feel
Once how I found your touch

My thought holds reason
My thought holds you and then

Timed perfect, pure, simple
Very little need to end this day
I pass through you real to feel

11 22 09

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With My Love As Was To Be

With my love as was to be
With my life as is to see
With my time a gift to hold
With my mind for now to write

Free to share how I feel
Free to touch noone if I care
Free to watch from you again
Pictures funny bring back memories

I lived your story
I live your story now
I watched every move
Every thought you played
I held every turn
Every reason to stay
Until one day you were gone

With my love as was to be
With my life as is to see
With my time a gift to hold
With my mind for now to write

I lived your life for me
I loved your life for me
How the times from you changed
I moved away from the open sea
I didn't understand
I can't say much about now

With my love as was to be
With my life as is to see
With my time a gift to hold
With my mind for now to write

How we get lost in the day
How then we are found

With my love as was to be
With my life as is to see
With my time a gift to hold
With my mind for now to write

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Music From You To Wait On

Music from you to wait on
A joy to live day to day

Feelings true never will disappear
Forever after forever
The value of love, life to express

Music from you to wait on
A joy to live day to day

How blue warms hurt carries on
How easy to stray is never real
How I never to believe in the dark

Music from you to wait on
A joy to live day to day

Music from you to wait on
A joy to live day to day

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In The Depth Of This Sea

In the depth of this sea
In these clouds near
I live truth every day about you
I hold you in my writing true

You are my most favorite way in the world
A reason to speak, rare found anywhere
I fight for peace in my alone
There must be time to think of you

In the depth of this sea
In these clouds near
I live truth every day about you
I hold you in my writing true

You are my most favored life in the sky
Throughout whatever forever is
You live eternal in my idea of time
I will always see you there

In the depth of this sea
In these clouds near
I live truth every day about you
I hold you in my writing true

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I Need My Friend 

I need my friend, not just anyone
For my writings to live
For my heart to love
For me, for my life
I need my friend, not just anyone

1 8 10

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When I Think Of My Meaning To Love

When I think of my meaning to love
I think of you

When I read of my quiet want
With walks in my today of hold
Along side of my memory call
My entertain of this sea

When I think of my meaning to love
I think of you

When I meet with my prayer
My time to grow another sun
My heart for my life, my peace

When I think of my meaning to love
I think of you

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You Were My Prayer In The Night

You were my prayer in the night
The one was meant to hold me tight
Love for my mind is hard to find
You were true want, deep desire
You were my thought to enjoy life
You were my fun in the day, my time
You are still my prayer in the night
The one was meant to hold me tight

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It's The Middle Of Summer Again

It's the middle of summer again

All I held onto was you
I listened for my feelings
Played my love into you

I hadn't one sound new to hear
I wouldn't turn away from you
I took another lonely day for a walk
Watched my life not want to understand

Anytime of night, any thought I find

It's the middle of summer again

I been writing my time too long for you
I been too lost inside to forget you
I always believed there would be more
I never listened for a way but yours

It's the middle of March almost gone

Anytime of night, any thought I find

It's the middle of summer again

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I'm Tired Of Moving Away From My Life

Walking through outside emotions not mine to feel
This truly carries wrong into my home of love
I rage inside over losing my given happiness

I'm tired of moving away from my life

In this tonight I look into my darkness
Without sound I know who plays my feelings well
The memory on my prayer pulls on my loneliness
How you were the greatest of thought I could think

I'm tired of moving away from my life

For the satisfaction of my requests from you answered
For the patience I used until any tomorrow may be
A new wonder of you comes over me, though I know
How quiet time can change into your hold for me

I have so much to say and never enough time
I have so much to leave of me behind for interest
What more should I share, should I stop this writing

I'm tired of moving away from my life

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Why Go To LA

Why go to LA
For love today
Through H B
Beautiful ocean
Why leave
For life tonight

Why go to LA
Hum a tune
The sun doesn't change
Why go to LA

Why go to LA
To raise dust
Cause havoc
On the world
Stay in the finest
Stay the dirt
The difference
With you gone

Why go to LA
Hum a tune
The sun doesn't change
Why go to LA

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When I speak of my time
How I know my life, my love
A gift from eternity I live

3 1 10

 

You Were To Be Here

You were to be here
Make the ocean go away
Pleased to feel
How of your love

All to believe
How to rant and rave
Taking turns to write

What do I have to say
Thrown out of life
You once there
Never to return

You were to be here
Make the ocean go away
Pleased to feel
How of your love

Walking beside noone
To know you now
Until I reach my end

What do I have to say
Thrown out of life
You once there
Never to return

You were to be here
Make the ocean go away
Pleased to feel
How of your love

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When I Come To You

When I come to you
You know where I am
What I want, who I love
How I live
How I find my calm
Why I understand
Why I ask
When I need

When I come to you
Where I hide
Who I will hear
Why I listen
My time, why I think

When I come to you
My sunrise, my rage
My days move
My nights ease
My wait now
My way

When I come to you

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Love, Desire To Live 

Wonderful show of devotion
Love, desire to live
Thought for time to understand
Way to give
Feel a feeling, touch a care
Along side of dispair
Wonderful show of devotion
Love, desire to live

.......................................................

 

Who Will I Be Tonight

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now, who was I once and why

When there are so many ways to read
Words of many reasons to believe

How thought is to perceive
How to listen of life to receive
How is love to turn

If one heart appears sound
Another is missing to time

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now, who was I once and why

Then in awhile an end is over
Errors created to begin again
Suddens of misunderstandings when

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now, who was I once and why

Who will I be tonight
Who am I now, who was I once and why

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I'm Just A Little Writer

I'm just a little writer, I sing my song
Once in awhile I hum a tune
Some days appear better in alone
The rest of nights is my life and you

Movies are made to bore me
To find nothing better to live
To change my view on alone
To turn wrong what love means

I've seen the idea, outside talk
Out of time, no thanks for me
Cops and robbers, pocket change
Lives just keep moving around

I'm just a little writer, I sing my song
Once in awhile I hum a tune
Some days appear better in alone
The rest of nights is my life and you

This chair I sit on in my room
Nothing around but me
When you send your hold I notice
When you move I listen, no other

To hear the real truth about myself
To notice the real truth about you
To play with silence, breath of way
To defend my heart as I play
To speak when I please, why I live

I'm just a little writer, sing my song
Once in awhile I hum a tune
Some days appear better in alone
The rest of nights is my life and you

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A Year Ago

Walked by a flag of a government
Led to be someone I would never care
Held in a god I know is somewhere
Spoken for, I am listened for
Watched over, held down, no change

A year ago is the same as today
In my guy, in my heart, in my mind of you

Without a minute of my need answered
I ask how many times over
Patience ten years later, twenty
A soul in a body without feeling to use
My own, I make it known is my own

A year ago is the same as today
In my guy, in my heart, in my mind of you

This so longing of loneliness, isn't for anyone
This so memory of emptiness, isn't for anyone
This faith never paid for as it should, no more
This so dreaming I never do, told I live

Have a mention I could leave a new example
Why I may turn into you again
Space just hasn't made it's place for me yet
Any yesterdays I would ask for today return

A year ago is the same as today
In my guy, in my heart, in my mind of you

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Freedom, A Slience Of A Melody

I get it

I understand life takes time to tell a story
Many stories move round this earth
Reflection is the easiest glory
How fountains continue to flow
With one strange day after another
No miraculous discover young to old
We carry whatever we are told
I understand life takes time to share a story
Freedom, a silence of a melody

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I'm Missing You Again

How my home interests me
I don't know I need trees
A yard around, a fence
A life isn't me

I'm missing you again

To care for thoughts inside
Just another day
A spend of mind in watch
What next will I give away

I'm missing you again

How many hours will I find
Sure to notice something
You then to entertain
My lonely time and I

I'm missing you again

I'm missing you again

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My Life Is Still Empty Now

If I held every home I lived within you
Showed you every room I've walked within you
Sent you every path I've learned to understand you
Shared every secret thought I carried within you

Could be why my life is so empty now
My life is still empty now

If I was to tell you every person through my life
Every turn away from love unless my love
How often I've fought to stay alone, on my luck

Would be why my life is so empty now
My life is still empty now

How many planes I've watched fly above me
How many trees I sat beside, the bark became you
How many crowds, avenues, I stayed away from

How many pens, how much paper, time
How often I believed you would stop back around
Driven by your heart, to find you never listened

This is why my life is so empty now
My life is still empty now

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Again, I Sit Writing Of My Life

Again, I sit writing of my life
Outside of the arms I belong

Counting the days of you gone
Far away from you
My home still lies in my love

This place I am now of
My need to grow always calling

Again, I sit writing of my life
Outside of the arms I belong

My want for you near
Lost in my thought

Again, I sit writing of my life
Outside of the arms I belong

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I'm Not Holding Love Isn't Mine 

I'm not holding love isn't mine
Watching anyone I'm not longing for
Not a song, a day, one sound to hold
Any time goes by, to stop
I will take my time, my life
I'm not holding love isn't mine

1 22 93

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written of Michael 6 19 2009 before stated death

In Memory Of You, Us

To like you once again
To talk with you from then
When our friendship was lost

To people in thought of me
To bring wrong, misunderstood
When our need was strong

In memory of you, us

A heart felt wonder
A way to continue
When our way was us

Light and easy
I often leave to
You and I

In memory of you, us

In memory of you, us

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Move This Minute Along

Move this minute along

Stays too hard on my mind
Never with change I need
Never with feeling I feel

Move this minute along

Must I carry so much love
Life after earth, life now
Never with life in now
Never with my touch

Move this minute along

This wind never blows right
However I ask
Whatever I learn
Too much hurt on my time

Move this minute along

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A Ride Along This Ocean

A ride along this ocean
Lives, about all and you
Countryside as people
Try about all and you

Why at times I don't find
In enough time to write
I see how full, empty I am

A ride along this ocean
Lives, about all and you

What I may never have
I may not want for now
Decide for me, I will listen

Too crowded to think
Wish I was never home
Try about all and you

To have somewhere, need

A ride along this ocean
Lives, about all and you

A ride along this ocean
Lives, about all and you

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Waiting To Hear From You

Waiting to hear from you
Feeling down this way I do
Thinking of you as true

Watching you away then close
When will you be here

Waiting to hear from you
Feeling down this way I do
Thinking of you as true

Walking just to walk real
Following my heart I touch
Within my love, my life

Waiting to hear from you
Feeling down this way I do
Thinking of you as true

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A Life We Live Together

A life we live together
A love we share apart
A truth we hold for each other
A forever we carry within our hearts

A tune once could have been
Reason never my own to use
Choice became my decision
Another place to roam into

One call never allowed answered
Alone became my affair
Left to who I have to hear

A life we live together
A love we share apart
A truth we hold for each other
A forever we carry within our hearts

With this sun to warm this planet
I walk along with you
A sky to see for empty time
How long is my wait to feel

A life we live together
A love we share apart
A truth we hold for each other
A forever we carry within our hearts


thinking of Michael
6 14 09

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Why Am I Not Understood

Why am I not understood
My life once as you
I feel I can't say only once
My love never changed
What those old days meant to me
Your time close with mine
Why am I not understood again

I don't only write for anything to say
I have a need or two left
These weren't answered one day
My story remains

Why am I not understood
My life once as you
I feel I can't say only once
My love never changed
What those old days meant to me
Your time close with mine
Why am I not understood again

Without real end between us
I lost everything I was living for
Every thought I return through
Turn anyway I move with you
I lost everything I was living for
With you

How crowded my mind truly is
You were not to be forgotten

Why am I not understood
My life once as you
I feel I can't say only once
My love never changed
What those old days meant to me
Your time close with mine
Why am I not understood again

4 14 10
 writing of Michael

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A Few Minutes Before Daylight

A few minutes before daylight
I hurt, do you hear me

I want to speak true
I run away from the world every night
Family broken, torn, uncaring
In front of eyes so young
Lives destroyed for no better known
Sing a song, share a feeling

A few minutes before daylight
I hurt, do you hear me

My only reason for today I see
Love I continue to want
Words to need, to find easy
To understand good meant to be
Low at heart, the deepest hurt
I hurt, do you hear me

A few minutes before daylight
I hurt, do you hear me

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My Thoughts Always Stop On You

If you send the one glow never burns away
The smallest light as you so great
Never less than true, never lost
I can't turn my love away unreal

Growing deeper into you where I stand
Would you walk past this sea and sand
As long as you are near would you understand

My thoughts always stop on you

If there could be a warmer place
Into my desert again with you I land
Just asking the wind I know you hear
Remember this was written years before today

My thoughts always stop on you

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Along Side Of This Road

Along side of this road
How does the heart grow
For life to live and love
For every one person unheld

Along side of this road
I know why I sit here now
Once a writer always one

In awards or none
In need til death do I find
If I am satisfied
Given of want, this is true
Given I was young once

Along side of this road
I know why I sit here now
Once a writer always one

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I Still Believe In You

Creating a picture of numbers
For my eyes to see
To try to erase my loneliness
Erase my emptiness away

These memories aren't pretty
Unless I think a moment of you
Then I move a touch, I feel love

You meant a lot to me
A lot to my writing
My life seemed so real

I still believe in you

Brightness for my day
I never found elsewhere
Usually the sun is dull
Sky too old of a scenery

My imagination becomes distant
Words to express, a sound to exist
My wish of you has been my heart
I can't ask my dream to end

I still believe in you

These memories aren't pretty
Unless I think a moment of you
Then I move a touch, I feel love

You meant a lot to me
A lot to my writing
My life seemed so real

I still believe in you

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I Found To Meet On Another Planet One Day

Noone told me love was a beautiful thing
I found with my thought what brown eyes mean
The color of hair could change with the days

I found to meet on another planet one day
Should earth and world stand in my way
I found to meet on another planet one day

Noone told me life was a grown way
I found from memories how to grow life my way
The kiss I knew could be a bit strange

I found to meet on another planet one day
Should earth and world stand in my way
I found to meet on another planet one day

Noone said love might be waiting for me
I found to wait only by my own writing
The friend in my words is what became of me

I found to meet on another planet one day
Should earth and world stand in my way
I found to meet on another planet one day

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To Bring Me Here Now

To bring me here now

I look again
I don't see my home
I don't feel my feelings
I don't find my life
I don't find my love
I reach out again

I must be lost in time
Peace of place not mine
What am I forgetting

To bring me here now

What haven't I spoken
Think I might need
Do I change too often
Too free, too easy
Love, who am I
To fall into my sleep

To bring me here now

Love, who am I

To bring me here now

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Unless I Have You To Look Forward To

I can be one of the most intelligient writers of any universe
Have the deepest of all understanding for the knowledge of time
I can be shown any natural (occurrence), experienced, learned

Unless I have you to look forward to there will be no use of feeling alive

I can be blessed with hands to turn any color into light, dark
Take the winter make it summer if I asked should I like
Hold forgiveness, never forgive, care once, never care for love

Unless I have you to look forward to there will be no use of feeling alive

I can kick the dust into a whirlwind, play with wind if I choose
Give an answer for what warm is, why then turned to cold
Play what seems to be forever in many ways show how

Unless I have you to look forward to there will be no use of feeling alive

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I'm Happy With Who I Am

I'm happy with who I am
Happy with who I am

Don't call me away from my life
This is the only life I have to live

Don't call me away from my love
This is the only love I have to love

I'm happy with who I am
Happy with who I am

Don't call me away from my feelings
These are the only feelings I feel

I'm happy with who I am
Happy with who I am

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Would I live my life for anyone
I don't believe true
Would I give my time for anyone
I don't think real
Why give my heart to anyone
I don't hold within

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In The Sun Of Your Ray

In the sun of your ray
My sweetness of you
I return so often to you

This beautiful sight of the ocean
From following you for love
To look through the night
I hear your life to continue

I don't need what is called real sound
One of my favorite feelings speaks

In the sun of your ray
My sweetness of you
I return so often to you

I refuse the memory some days
Need to collect my thoughts
What next from you

This beautiful sight of the ocean
From following you for love
To look through the night
I hear your life to continue

In the sun of your ray
My sweetness of you
I return so often to you

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To Pray Your Love True

To pray your love true

In tonight
Where I place my very deep
Deepest thoughts in you
I look through the meanings
In time beyond now

In life beyond sorrow
I feel your love near
In god from wherever I am
I send you life

To pray your love true

In my peace to need
To want you
To spend a hope, a word, a note
I know one day
You will be near
In god from wherever I am
I send you life

To pray your love true

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Don't let long time love fool you
The long may be unreal
Many ways to look at life
The truth is in the prayer
Don't let face value throw you
Heart must be the friend
Don't let the sky rule you
Who runs on need with you then

4 17 05

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On a day when I don't hear from you
I know you still may be heard
Into any night yet to come
Close to you or apart
I will still pray for you
Send only your heart
Everything else there is to you
I never forget to want

7 24 96

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If I Became Spirit Again

If I became spirit again
Choose god as my light
My shine of wonder
would still be for you

Looking into my day
Of writing my life away
On your love

I think to feel feelings
In the truth of my heart
You meant the world to me

If I became spirit again
Choose god as my light
My shine of wonder
would still be for you

Walking into your life
Within the song of my need
This continues to be my only peace

Finally to replace the sun with you
In my warmth of want

My color shown real to the clouds
This earth is only under me now
I didn't create the universe
I wouldn't before bringing you true

If I became spirit again
Choose god as my light
My shine of wonder
would still be for you

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Were we only playing with yesterday to stand here in today
cause I still don't know why or what I'm all about with you?
5 3 10
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This time moving on isn't easy
harder than once was never over
5 7 10

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Whatever Comes To Be

My writing rules
I learned this long ago
This is how
My missing you calls

Whatever comes to be
Will continues in the colors of me

This is why

My life doesn't dream
Some times aren't meant to leave
Some gifts even when tired continue
My belief stands

My time grows on
My spirit flies free

This is how

Whatever comes to be
Will continues in the colors of me

Why I look back
Why I look ahead
Why I remain the same

Whatever comes to be
Will continues in the colors of me

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Why Take A Break Away From You

When there is truly noone else to know
Who holds feelings for my life
Care over my love, my home, my writing

Why should I expect blind faith again
I never gave up on you
Why now take a break away from you

Why send my hand into insincerity
Why trust anyone I know not for me
Ill wills are real, sorrows for prayers
Noone listens to meaning to my experience

Why believe what I don't

Why should I expect blind faith again
I never gave up on you
Why now take a break away from you

Why take a break away from you

Why now take a break away from you

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I don't want an apology
Do something better with your time
I just want to go on with who would I be
Naturally be of mine 5 8 10
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Remember, I Am The One

When I listened to you there was a reason
When I asked from only you could answer
When you shed a tear about me
I shed a few for you

Remember, I am the one
I lost everything to you

Hurt where do you feel hurt
Hurt on me now ain't that something more
Secrets all of these years
I held within myself
The trust I gave in you
The life I left behind over you

Remember, I am the one
I lost everything to you

I'm the one
I spent all my prayers to fall apart
Only with where do prayers come from
The heart
Now to want to live my life
I don't have my life with you

Remember, I am the one
I lost everything to you

Remember, I am the one
I lost everything to you

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Never To Dream, Only To Love

Never to dream
Only to love
With words I love

With words to write
With words to speak
With words to think

With words to see
With words to hear
With words to play

With words to change

Never to dream
Only to love
With words I love

In any given turn
I may take
I may remember
I may find today
Where I live tonight

Never to dream
Only to love
With words I love

Never to dream
Only to love
With words I love

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Don't You Want To Reach For My Life

Don't you want to reach for my life
When your loss of heart is close
When your night is on without me
Your day is absent of my mind

Don't you value the time I pray
Asked to be allowed to dream you true
For only your love within my sea
Of our hands to free the sky
For our peace of souls inside

Even if I didn't speak
What is it I seek
To read of desire in my hold
Not for an untrue spirit

Don't you want to reach for my life
When your loss of heart is close
When your night is on without me
Your day is absent of my mind

I just want to return to you
If you've never meant to leave
Don't you want to forget
You don't miss me

Don't you want to reach for my life
When your loss of heart is close
When your night is on without me
Your day is absent of my mind

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You never left without a kiss
You wouldn't think of it

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I Can't Find What I Need

I can't find what I need
And then you're gone
To only a song
Hasn't come true yet

I can't find my beginning
I stay on an ending
Understand my feelings
Looking at noone in myself
Never having this silence go away
Never with you here today

I can't find what I need
And then you're gone
To only a song
Hasn't come true yet

I hear everything I am trying to say
My life can never change
I see every growing on day
Longing or no longing
I don't reach right
With my hands to yours

I can't find what I need
And then you're gone
To only a song
Hasn't come true yet

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Can I Make You Mine Again And Again

For present time changes I need
For reaching inside of me
For touching emotions with meaning
For future now to hold something
For my hope to live life
For my pleasure I truly love

Can I make you mine again and again

You understand my prayers
You understand my growth
You grow my heart into yours

For a miracle again from you
For real to have real as true
For you wake to my sleep
For you sleep to my wake

Can I make you mine again and again

You understand my prayers
You understand my growth
You grow my heart into yours

Can I make you mine again and again

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For Now I Prefer The Rain

So many emotions, feelings to look through
Not mere writings to discard memories away

I forget to write, this is my only life
I forget to think, this is my only mind
Keep the faith, I'm too tired to change
Forget my heart, is there any other way, explain

For now I prefer the rain

I hope for the best, care to understand
I hold on to yet another tomorrow
How many days beside my away from imagining
Knowing the truth, sure the sun will shine again

For now I prefer the rain

So many emotions, feelings to look through
Not mere writings to discard memories away

For now I prefer the rain

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All Of My Writings

All of my writings
On every wall
In any country
Any street corner
Beside every walk
The heart drives
Through every thought

All of my writings
Lead me to you

I could escape
Laugh surprized
On todays song
Never an exchange
A good dream
A wrong real
What would you play

All of my writings
Lead me to you

To know, to think
This way I've lived
Continued in the lord
Told him a few things
When will this end
You will be true again
What would you say

All of my writings
Lead me to you

All of my writings
Lead me to you

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Moving Along With Hours Of My Loneliness

Moving along with hours of my loneliness
I listen to you for my peace
Not a word is spoken, not a tune
Only writing the pleasure of my hold

The only love I carry on this earth
I don't see another need as real
There will never be a deeper sea found
I will live beside, grow my heart, my mind

Moving along with hours of my loneliness
This moment of hurt understands you more

In all of these years have gone by
Every person to walk in, out of my life
Erasing your memory was never the answer
I could never give away my feelings as now

Moving along with hours of my loneliness
My silence in you is my belief again

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As I Find My Love In Your Love

As I find my love in your love
Do you know my days in your years
My years in your days so real
No better existence did I need
As I find my love in your love

As I find my love in your love
In your peace I lay my silence
My life falls into your life
My feelings grow so deeply in you
To linger in your hold
The beauty of your mind to understand
Why I run torn in your arms
To listen to my prayers again

As I find my love in your love
Do you know my days in your years
My years in your days so real
No better existence did I need
As I find my love in your love

As I find my love in your love
To look into your kiss
To know your home as mine
To want to reach for you more
Seems right for me to choose
To earn writings with your hand
I learn who you are, who I am
Enclosed in my forever I stand

As I find my love in your love
Do you know my days in your years
My years in your days so real
No better existence did I need
As I find my love in your love

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Given A Blessing I Can't Leave

Given a blessing I can't leave
This would change my peace

Held by a wisdom I can't share
Too deep in the mind to care
Heard by noone I need
Sound isn't simple for me

I walked away from my own life
I turned away from my own love
Never to return was all I thought
Left to live only on belief

Given a blessing I can't leave
This would change my peace

A wait for you I wouldn't end
In today returns in tonight
How wronged did I feel

What happened to my change of seasons
What do I share you notice
What do I write, what do I speak
What is this lesson
I walk into every meaning I seek

Given a blessing I can't leave
This would change my peace

Given a blessing I can't leave
This would change my peace

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All You Were To Be Was My Dream

All you were to be was my dream
All to you was everything to you could mean
All you were to be was my dream

Is it better I don't touch my love for you
This sadness as too deep to see through
I can find hurt easy outside of you

Is it you don't believe I think of you as I do
These feelings so real I speak
Life from your eyes ia all I need

All you were to be was my dream
All to you was everything to you could mean
All you were to be was my dream

Every memory you leave me with now
Is it better I hang on to all of these
For all of my rest in the rest of my heart

Am I better broken by you as whole again

All you were to be was my dream
All to you was everything to you could mean
All you were to be was my dream

All you were to be was my dream
All to you was everything to you could mean
All you were to be was my dream

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To Laugh Happily Over You

A sad song is moving on some days
A pace for my real feelings
Time to rest forget nights are near

Remove troubles, find peace
Share bright with the true eyes
Save the best emotions for you

To laugh happily over you

Take a deep breath on my dream time
My wish, my fortune, my darkness
Return to you refreshed

To laugh happily over you

Grown by love from the deep sea
Shown life from life I reach
Carried through how

To laugh happily over you

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"Growth isn't only god. Sight isn't only sky.

Sound isn't only world. Ground isn't only earth."

........................................................................................

Some Forever Not Any Eternity

Some forever not any eternity

Some thing not anything
Some one not anyone
Some where not anywhere


Some day not any day
Some way not any way
Some want not any want
Some need not any need


Some home not any house
Some room not any room
Some sea not any ocean
Some world not any world


Some reason not any reason
Some light not any light
Some song not any tune
Some words not any meanings


Some life not any life
Some love not any love
Some time not any time
Some night not any night


Some forever not any eternity

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I Try To Say Why I'm Lonely

Dreaming off into my space
Thinking about my emptiness
I write of my wishes again
In words I see so often

I try to say why I'm lonely
Try to say why I'm lonely

As always do you only care
Like people out for themselves
Walk honest and right with me

In prayer for me
In my heart as my heart
Within simple and true

I try to say why I'm lonely
Try to say why I'm lonely

Look at life
Look at love
Look at god
Look at the sea
The sea is too deep for me

I try to say why I'm lonely
Try to say why I'm lonely

Follow in the footsteps of who
Me or you

I try to say why I'm lonely
Try to say why I'm lonely

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In This World Of Mine

My life is wasting away, wasting away
Like days going into a state
Of time moving it's way, it's way

My heart is too late
For the way love is moving now
The past for what I need

In this world of mine
To share of my kind
Four walls and a brick devine

Someone thinks my life should be one way
I have feelings for you, for no different
I can't get through

In this world of mine
To share of my kind
Four walls and a brick devine

I am sent everywhere but to you
Never sent to my love for you
There is always a fight

In this world of mine
To share of my kind
Four walls and a brick devine

In this world of me
To share of my kind
Four walls and a brick devine

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You Couldn't Be More Missed

You couldn't be more missed
Missing tonight
Then again if you were here
What would I write

I am so blessed, so loved
Wanted, needed, alive

I have so much more
More than at times I see

I am caressed until

You couldn't be more missed
Missing tonight
Then again if you were here
What would I write

Everytime you touch me
Everytime I think you
Every turn I make

All I have to do is wait
To find the answer
For my day

You couldn't be more missed
Missing tonight
Then again if you were here
What would I write

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It's A Crazy World Of Time

It's a crazy world of time
The earth spinning round
Moving onto where

What you see isn't always true
Look, stop, start your feelings
Understand why you believe
What you hear isn't always real

Achange of words
Set your mind aside
Listen without want one time

It's a crazy world of time
The earth spinning round
Moving onto where

Far away deep darkness
Notice how to use the sky
Far away into close lightness
Notice how to use the sun

Turn white into a reason for why

It's a crazy world of time
The earth spinning round
Moving onto where

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Why Dream Of Rain

Why dream of rain on a sunny day
Why hope for pain, ask for change
Why believe in anything today the same

In fifty years, why now, why now
Back in time this way
Fifteen to thirty years special memory days

Why dream of rain on a sunny day
Why hope for pain, ask for change
Why believe in anything today the same

Silent walks rest the heart
Silent talks ease the soul why
Silent togethers strengthen the spirit
Let me start again

Why dream of rain on a sunny day
Why hope for pain, ask for change
Why believe in anything today the same

Why dream of rain on a sunny day
Why hope for pain, ask for change
Why believe in anything today the same

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a really old writing of Michael
when I traveled Vegas and LA
903 was the number
2437 of a collection

Between Vegas And LA

In all of these times of giving
All of these times of living
All of these ways of showing
All of these days of knowing

Between Vegas and LA
Getting through the deep
Of my feelings
I only want to be my woman
Not thrown out along the way

Always asking for something
Always somebody somewhere
Always somehow I will make it
Always so hard getting anywhere

Between Vegas and LA
Getting through the deep
Of my feelings
I only want to be my woman
Not thrown out along the way

I been on a stage often with myself
Wanting my sweetheart for this life
There is music in my loving now
Warmth always in my eyes for you

Always asking for something
Always somebody somewhere
Always somehow I will make it
Always so hard getting anywhere

Between Vegas and LA
Getting through the deep
Of my feelings
I only want to be my woman
Not thrown out along the way

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My Passion

My passion
You notice me for always
My reason
I notice you for always

I could never say you don't love me
Never have I thought this
Now are you
You are nobody to the world
What should be true between us
Never would I want different

Now are you where I am
Looking in on me again

My passion
You notice me for always
My reason
I notice you for always

Is hard to understand only one moment
Then those moments of our closeness
Seemed to fade away
How to remember you never leaves
How to wait with the truth of you

I would win

My passion
You notice me for always
My reason
I notice you for always

What should be true between us
Never would I want different

My passion
You notice me for always
My reason
I notice you for always

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I Think Of Loneliness With You

I think of loneliness with you

As my place of peace
To drive deep in the heart
In my heart to keep
Often when I want to speak
I wait only to talk with you
I write until I go to sleep
I write to then wake again

I think of loneliness with you

As my gift for life
As my joy to save
As my friend in you
To wait for you to appear
To keep me lonely and blue
Without complaint

I think of loneliness with you

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"This earth is an encompassed stage
from the world and isn't allowed
to know any thing else."
9-20-96

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There Is No End To My Love For Writing

There is no end to my love for writing
My life of you will remain new daily
Should this be my only way through evening

What you choose to live I find peace
I may grow tired, I become weak
I may feel more lonely, I will retreat

There is no end to my love for writing
My life of you will remain new daily
Should this be my only way through evening

I am not alive to fight with you
Take from you what you don't give
I look well into my few thoughts

I was alive once in your life
If this only becomes the same this is right
I won't cry for nothing
I need not prove anything

There is no end to my love for writing
My life of you will remain new daily
Should this be my only way through evening

There is no end to my love for writing
My life of you will remain new daily
Should this be my only way through evening

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Lonely Wanderer Move Over

Lonely wanderer move over
If I don't have you
I played for nothing

I never got to know your love
Never got to see
If you and I would have been true
As today

I spend the night wondering
My love is still in you
Going on doesn't bring joy
Then I look back at you

Lonely wanderer move over
If I don't have you
I played for nothing

Lonely wanderer move over
If I don't have you
I played for nothing

I know you can never tell me why
I been kept away from loving you
Made to be left from the one
Who would always see me through

I don't know what I did
But for being born and wanting you
I don't know what I did
But for holding love and needing you

Lonely wanderer move over
If I don't have you
I played for nothing

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written of Michael 1 09

How I See You Now

How I see you now
The only man who would understand me
Then I laugh this writing away

How I made life into today
I left once over with yesterday
I wouldn't look back only to write
I wanted to return, often was around

How I think love into today
My writing as my love I continue to play
I wouldn't change if I lost you
Lived with the heart, with the ocean

How I see you now
The only man who would understand me
Then I laugh this writing away

How I sing within my heart
Often of emptiness, you near in my quiet
I wouldn't give away my only need
I feel my want to walk

How I see you now
The only man who would understand me
Then I laugh this writing away

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This Is My Life

This is my life
How do you think I write
Feelings, thoughts, emotions
How much time would be in need
The silence, the alone, the want
I can't seem to be understood

What does it take to live real friends
My peace, my love, my life
How do you think I survive
I can't seem to be understood

This is my life
How I believe
How I choose my melodies
Why I appear different

This is my life
In no other words
This is my life

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What Will Be Next

What will be next
Where I left off
Will I start again
Where I first found to begin
That is where I am
Should be with you
Everyone holds their place
Will there be another song
I understand through
A feeling to wander along
What will be next

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I Hold Everything But You

In a struggle for my future
In a struggle for my today
In a struggle for my life, my love
In a struggle for my way

I hold everything but you

I can't seem to move forward
I miss special people I can't leave
I've come to a window won't let me see
I've found no new place to breath

I hold everything but you

My peace seems to break
My thought is always awake

In a struggle for my future
In a struggle for my today
In a struggle for my life, my love
In a struggle for my way

I hold everything but you

I hold everything but you

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Continue To Write My Story Of You

Continue to write my story of you

I like to mingle in your crowd unknown
Watch what you choose to live
When I find pain from you
You will feel your pain one day
As is only truly love

Continue to write my story of you

Most always I am not heard
I only speak when wrong seems to reign
I only need one reason to love you
Remind me you may again be true

Continue to write my story of you

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Never To Think Of You As Mine 

Never to think of you as mine
Always watching from the side line
Where asking was receiving from you
Seemed too high to climb common wonder
Never to think of you as mine

9 09

 

I Don't Feel Any Different

Happy halloween again
Have you changed this night
Happy thanksgiving again
What will be for this one
Should I watch or miss the day

I don't feel any different

Merry christmas is a has been
Unchanged thoughts continue
I become warm
The world becomes cold

I don't feel any different

As for a new year
Love within I hold away
Everyone wants me different
Never with the life I give

I don't feel any different

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Hatred Does No Good

Hatred does no good
Hurt within on another
Feelings to share
Walks through care

Life is just so short
Beyond and now
Peace is in quiet time

Pain on a song
Turn love around
I believe in always

Hatred does no good
To laugh away calm
To share your need
In any air of a touch

Hatred does no good
I try to tell you
I can throw you any curve
You won't catch on

Hatred does no good

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So Much

So much to lose, more to win
I move along my need within
Once forgotten, remember to write
On to new tomorrows, thought of life

So much to feel, more to love
I hang on for my wish
Once a dream, now as real
On to new todays, sights to watch

So much to hear, never listen
I wait long enough to understand
Once wanted, now beyond care
On to new tonights new experiences

So much

6 08

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Time To Touch Your Life

Sometimes you just pass love by
Wasn't to be the love for your eyes
You don't want inside, don't need

You go alone until you hear
It's your turn to be near
In hope for your time, touch your life

Time to touch your life
You hope it's
Time to touch your life

How hard looking is
You quit seeing around
Something keeps your mind moving
Til it's time to touch your mind

Time to touch your life
You hope it's
Time to touch your life

If your life should go by
The feelings you feel aren't right
Come round again
Turn in for the night

It's time to touch your life

Time to touch your life
You hope it's
Time to touch your life

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A Friend Once Told Me

A friend once told me
I could ask, receive from you
That friend once you
Are we still close
One nights together were real
Is love found never disappeared

My old pages, my new rages
Become old hazy thoughts to me
My love waits, my peaceful days
These carry my only wants

My talks to who listens
Cares a troubled everyone
My only needs find answer
You another tear in my heart

A friend once told me
I could ask, receive from you
That friend once you
Are we still close
One nights together were real
Is love found never disappeared

My old ways still don't explain
How we fell apart
What happens now, kind or cruel
What will fall true to understand

A friend once told me
I could ask, receive from you
That friend once you
Are we still close
One nights together were real
Is love found never disappeared

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One Missing Song

Remembering you
New memories from the old
I don't need more feelings
What holds memories within
I can't return into the past
Easier to forget
One missing song
Understanding new thoughts
A wait on how to change
Understanding to reach f
or you
On One missing song
One missing song

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Secrets

Secrets kill deep inside
Secrets don't save some lives
Secrets hold reasons why
Secrets cry in the night


Secrets play games with mind
Secrets touch hard on heart
Secrets burn soul into fire
Secrets are most always wrong


Secrets are lies made right
Secrets are hurts without light
Secrets are lost feelings long
Secrets never die away


Secrets must be shown one day
Secrets to tear at time


Secrets care for nothing in now
Secrets make this world empty
Secrets hide away love and life
Secrets keep wonder at sight


Secrets destroy belief in warmth
Secrets turn wisdom cold
Secrets kill deep inside

Secrets kill deep inside

a new writing 6 6 10

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Wish I Had A Dime 

I've never been liked much
Never wanted as real
I found to play alone
Easier than trying to fit in

Spoken to very little
Could be why I don't speak
A writing to me
My song within

Why need to learn to say hello
Why need to understand a norm
Normal is what way to live

Take a sky as only one thought
Walk an earth as only one step
Seems always only the same

Wish I had one dime made just one bit of sense

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My Favorite Pet

My favorite pet
There's something about
My favorite pet

I can tell every second of the unreal
There's something about my life
I know my favorite pet
Better than anyone could try

It's hard to give away
The only song I love
The deepest of my thoughts
My own I ever found

To say how I feel
Listen about love
To want what I know as true
Use why so easy as now

My favorite pet
There's something about
My favorite pet

I hear a lot of fires
These don't change a thing
I never understand stealing of free
Born to die lonely or in a change
What's mine when gone
The good to grow happy
This will be my always

My favorite pet
There's something about
My favorite pet

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Old edit writing of Michael from 1997

Running Alone

In tempid drives alive
Riding upon my mind
My very mellow inside
I remain nobody
Too in rage I walk
For this sky could break apart
What is earth doing with my heart

Am I only to find a star
Beauty in the dust above
The grey of sea
What I become
In you now only under a sun

Running alone, would you know

Is my spirit a real part of me
I've heard every song to create
For you though I will wait
On one more date
In my love as a dream

A soft spoken word
Never clouded by your life
Only made from your life for me
The chance you may appear
You do then you are gone
Seems this is you as always

Running alone, would you know

Never ending warm holds of calm
How do I stand beside you
Of joy to deeply understand
Doesn't take much thought over you

Running alone, would you know

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a very old writing thinking of Michael 1993

My Prayers Stay The Same

My prayers stay the same
Though seems to only stay in my prayers
My prayers stay the same

There wasn't anything else I asked for
Write the songs I love so much
I would play the very most within
My thought, my guy to dream of
To reach my home, my happiness
Day and night to day again

My prayers stay the same
Though seems to only stay in my prayers
My prayers stay the same

I don't seem to listen to a care of life
Means nothing for what I need
I never seem to see a real longing
Longing for me is to be loved and free
With the only hold of my arms now
I ask again what I would find to share
The silent, the calm, forever calls
More not less tears aren't always alone

My prayers stay the same
Though seems to only stay in my prayers
My prayers stay the same

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title inspired by Martha Tellez 6 18 10

Replaying The Past

Replaying the past
For tears or for smiles

A little bit of love
A whole lot of life
Thinking away time
Watching planets fly

This moon shown in day
This earth not far away
Somewhere in the clouds
Appears an answer to you

Replaying the past
For tears or for smiles

When a bird tries to hide
To hide from the rain
What next to understand
What more to decide

Once was desire
A wonder how
Next becomes a flower
Not too sure now

Replaying the past
For tears or for smiles

Replaying the past
For tears or for smiles

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Living In The Closet Of Your Life

Living in the closet of your life
Who asked for pleasure isn't mine
Who asked for rain in my sky

Waiting on my way through to you
Thinking how to feel, what is true
Holding what appears as a real day
How do I change what never changes

Living in the closet of your life
Who asked for pleasure isn't mine
Who asked for rain in my sky

Moving treasured touches through why
Why break this silence of now
A different, no more than a different place
Turning warmth into cold my way

Running out of love to find
Distance seems a waste of mind
Closeness to who

Living in the closet of your life
Who asked for pleasure isn't mine
Who asked for rain in my sky

Living in the closet of your life

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To Notice, To Notice Me

I count trees in my sleep
The bark is my sleeve
In thought of you my roots
Don't play hard to please
I know you too easy

The wind is my home
Never to know
Where I will roam
In sadness, what is true
In happiness to find you

To notice, to notice me

I never listen for sound
You seem to live close again
To watch you far
Looking after you had a day

Never happy in the end
Happy all the way til then
What will you send I need
To notice, to notice me

To notice, to notice me

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You Were Never A Star To Me

You were never a star to me
You were my friend
Someone to help me see
Through to my end
A thought I asked one day
In you for me
All to show you a way
Better way to be free

You were never a star to me
You were my friend
A man who understands
Knows who I am
A care in a heart
A one night sure of you
A wait to explain

You were never a star to me
You were my friend
A touch with the means
To use as well
Better to listen for my love
You know me true
Tomorrow will never be
Over with you

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Enough Of A Need For Water Never True 

Enough of a need for water never true
Allow me absence to listen to one more lie
I watched wind show me more than I learned hello
In this world a chime in our tune, all of time
Not one move, not one excuse, or many
Enough of a need for water never true

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Does Anyone Hear Me

Does anyone hear me, does anyone see
The painstaken fight through my enemies
Does anyone care, does anyone feel me
Am I only one for always

Finding my way back around to one day
Did I leave
Had I known through this life
What would I see
Looking into the thought I find
Keep my peace
Quiet hope, was this within never to change

What I notice, how you touch
My hold for love
What I've given away now
I only find to write
Knowing you as I do in faith with heart
How did I make who I am
Someone I should find

Does anyone hear me, does anyone see
The painstaken fight through my enemies
Does anyone care, does anyone feel me
Am I only one for always

Why so cruel, want a world then leave
Why so cold, never a night of peace
Enough with prayers never change a thing
It's good if noone understands me

Does anyone hear me, does anyone see
The painstaken fight through my enemies
Does anyone care, does anyone feel me
Am I only one for always

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I Get Tired Of It All

I get tired of it all

I get tired of your love I know as mine gone
I get tired of the missing friendship some turns
I get tired of hearing of you, of you, of you as always
I get tired of I love you to no end,

I get tired of it all

I understand everything about this world
Your life, my life, the whole of earth
I am tired of playing with minds don't care
All to fulfill somewhere unknown
To you, to me, to anybody

I live carefree as I can, careful on my hand
I try to not see what I don't need
You remind me of most of my memories
Not to send harm, not to bring about loss
I speak the truth, sent less than kind words

I get tired of it all

I get tired of your love I know as mine gone
I get tired of the missing friendship some turns
I get tired of hearing of you, of you, of you as always
I get tired of I love you to no end,

I get tired of it all

I understand everything about you, about me
I hold no bitterness, I hold no grief
I do share with you more than you think
More than I am believed
Never to leave you, lead where you shouldn't be

I get tired of it all

I get tired of your love I know as mine gone
I get tired of the missing friendship some turns
I get tired of hearing of you, of you, of you as always
I get tired of I love you to no end,

I get tired of it all

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Whatever You Cry

What ever you cry
I know when
What ever you move
I know why
I need not spend my time
Thinking of you

I know the tune
I lived you
I heard every line
Any line there is to use

I feel for you
I am real for you
Earth is nothing
Look further ahead

When you call then
Let us see who can be there
Who was to pray
Who was to really care for you

What ever you cry
I know when
What ever you move
I know why
I need not spend my time
Thinking of you

I know the heart
I loved you
I touched every thought
Your mind would choose

I watched you call
You spoke to me, I listened
Now I listen again

I know what I asked from you
No other could exchange

When you stop next time
I will start you again
On your way you asked to receive

What ever you cry
I know when
What ever you move
I know why
I need not spend my time
Thinking of you

Once we were close never ended
We only fell onto different walkways
Appeared away from each other

What ever you cry
I know when
What ever you move
I know why
I need not spend my time
Thinking of you

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Have I A Better Hold On Life

I don't know what more to say
I haven't found until today
I sit in present time
What I think may pass away
I read of many people
I remain in my chosen place

Have I a better hold on life
Is there a different need for love
I speak with outside feelings
We all believe as real, a try

I watch into my trees
My forest is greater than yours
This is how I know you so well
One side of your story to tell
Inside carried the peace I live

Have I a better hold on life
Is there a different need for love
I speak with outside feelings
We all believe as real, a try

I hear a cloud wants to speak
Is only allowed silence
Not enough care in the world
Never changes for a thing

Have I a better hold on life
Is there a different need for love
I speak with outside feelings
We all believe as real, a try

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Should I Piece Together Everywhere I Stand

Often living backwards doesn't change anything
Moving forward hasn't my life in mind
Held in tonight calls for thought on you
New turns aren't how I love to see

Some people know how to show real care
Understand who I am, where I walk from
To try a new sound doesn't find me there

Should I piece together everywhere I stand
Would this bring my need answer
Could my choices be chosen for me
I don't seem to hear when I speak

On my own too long, free to believe
Always more than I can feel
Lost amid a shine I don't wear well
Never sure anyone ever cared

Should I piece together everywhere I stand
Would this bring my need answer
Could my choices be chosen for me
I don't seem to hear when I speak

I wait for the rare to touch me
I know what handed anything once was
Takes a special reason to color my heart

Should I piece together everywhere I stand
Would this bring my need answer
Could my choices be chosen for me
I don't seem to hear when I speak

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What I Never Got To Say

What I never got to say
I share now
What I never got to say

Held in time I wait
Last time you sent love
I noticed a change

How life moves
Thought and prayer
Walks on earth
Someone or noone near

My best old days I touch
I must treat with care
Last time you were near

What I never got to say
I share now
What I never got to say

The growth to feel
I could find reason
I could understand
I would only listen

When a word followed
Last time I needed
I didn't need again

Never looking for you
Never expecting less
Never to change
Never to explain
Never to hurt different

What I never got to say
I share now
What I never got to say

How you fall in place
How perfect you are
If you know
If you don't

What I never got to say
I share now
What I never got to say

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Looking

Looking for something to say
Wanting to think of a better day
Feeling to find you near
Sure of you always to live
Watching an end to begin again

Looking for those times to continue
Wasn't this where I was
When life seemed to change
Love seemed lost
Walking away only to remain

Looking for why, how to make good
What was now to become
What could I say
Who would understand back then
Is anyone still around to talk with

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One Wish

One wish
One lost day
One night
One long way
One torn hold

One wish
One happy peace
One place real
One turn true
One care found

One wish
One silent word
One never change
One gift
One time

One wish
One lost day
One night
One long way
One torn hold

One wish
Once you
One win
One last wish
One thank you
One what next

One wish
One lost day
One night
One long way
One torn hold

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My Travel Calls Me Back Again

I just don't know what I want
I can't return to yesterday real
Only live now within how I feel

Watch my most touching time
Hold what I have to say alive
Share my warmest loss
Run out of words for the night

My travel calls me back again
Left behind pays with my heart
Lost wins show as wrong

To think I am forgotten by you
To think I must change
To think I don't belong with you

I just don't know what I need
Would make a difference in me
To find care as I care
An instrument of joy as true

My travel calls me back again
Left behind pays with my heart
Lost wins show as wrong

My travel calls me back again
Left behind pays with my heart
Lost wins show as wrong

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Amused

I hear of camps along the tracks
I watch players on streets of champs
I live my life for a love once true
I believe in a new miracle from you

Amused

I touch big boys angry and sad
If only for a passing moment of thought
Some come close then far as stars
I sit silently hiding from the sun

Was I meant to be here today
Did I only follow in a way
Was I take by surprize with you
Did I expect every now to come true

Amused

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Not Sure What I Want To Say

Not sure what I want to say
Enjoying the water, a travel away

Finding peace if only for today
Watching meanings to my yesterdays
Listening to feelings speak for me
Looking at the wind

Not sure what I want to say
Enjoying the water, a travel away

Hoping to find my one and only friend
Walking along without being by the sea
Eating chocolate to think sweet

Not sure what I want to say
Enjoying the water, a travel away

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 I'm A Lonely Bug Just Crawling Along

I'm not thinking of today
I'm trying to rest the wind away
Looking at how ghosts fly through the night
Playing games with one time loves
I'm watching change change into nothing new
Moving to noone, moving to you
Placing a bet on the sky
Reaching for love as a happy time
My stolen shoes never returned
My life long views over grown
I have nowhere new to show
I'm a lonely bug just crawling along

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How Many Times I've Walked My Trail

How many times I've walked my trail
Listened to thought for what I feel
Relied on life to see me through
Carried faith to believe in you

For how often I am moved by you
The sand, the sea, the shore, this land
My runways of bitterness

Entertaining colors in wait of you there
Looking over reasons to understand
Emotion, the use, the evening wind

How often just to explain

How many times I've walked my trail
Listened to thought for what I feel
Relied on life to see me through
Carried faith to believe in you

Life, love, the many meanings
Admiration, distance from you
How often to remember changes
How many times I tried to speak

Left to now within today as time is
How often could I turn back

How often just to explain

How many times I've walked my trail
Listened to thought for what I feel
Relied on life to see me through
Carried faith to believe in you

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I'm Not Playing This Game

I'm not playing this game
Not touching the fire of this way
I know you too well
I need to send a different thought
Life in your heart isn't what you say

Could be the truth isn't spoken real
Could be I believe in a better want
Could be I challenge you the same

I'm not playing this game

There seems to me an eternity
A cleansing you may find never done
There seems to me some tall tales
Could be why you walked so lonely

Could be the truth isn't spoken real
Could be I believe in a better want
Could be I challenge you the same

All of my writings are true
Everything I say about me, about you
Sad to find you don't turn around
Could be you will never pass through

Could be the truth isn't spoken real
Could be I believe in a better want
Could be I challenge you the same

Could be why you walked so lonely

I'm not playing this game

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Didn't You Know

Didn't you know
I understand you
I lived you
I once loved you
Around you
With you

Truth this time
Why not all
Start over
See what I see
How I feel
In forgiveness

Didn't you know
I understand you
I lived you
I once loved you
Around you
With you

I never thought
I ruled your world
I only tried
A protecting turn

Another thought
Which one now
I always wait
Always sure of you

Didn't you know
I understand you
I lived you
I once loved you
Around you
With you

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Got To Live And Love You

Got to live and love you
All I can think

Got to laugh awhile
Run past yesterday
Got to find joy
This story of today

Got to believe in you
Once a night
Got to wait
Got to stop, think

Got to live and love you
All I can think

Got to listen to you
Got to feel a feeling
Got to play memory

Got to explain
In some way
Where have I been
Tell you again

Got to live and love you
All I can think

Got to live and love you
All I can think

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If I Never Lived You True

If I never lived you true
I wouldn't have loved you
If I never lived you true

If I never left today
I wouldn't be here tonight

If I didn't settle for alone
I wouldn't understand peace
One writing right

If I never lived you true
I wouldn't have loved you
If I never lived you true

If I wasn't your song
I wouldn't hum a tune real
I wouldn't have one word
One writing I love

If I never lived you true
I wouldn't have loved you
If I never lived you true

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What Would You Say

What would you say
Share what you feel
What would you think
Remember of me

I waited these years
To hear from you
I never gave away
The hope I held

I waited the days
I watched the nights

What would you say
Share what you feel
What would you think
Remember of me

I learned from you
The life I knew

I could never leave
Always grow deeper
Always win my need

What would you say
Share what you feel
What would you think
Remember of me

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Where this story is going
I can only write
Live through any reason
I may find to write
I see in front of me only
Look at why, look at how
I found today
Tomorrow on it's way
For now
I have no more to say

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Thanks for the writings, thoughts, memories, love and life

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Picking Up Stones For My Heart

Picking up stones for my heart

How real I've lived tells all
How real I've held on, been held
How real would end if not real

Too much silence around
Your life must be living round
Your love in thought of mind
Next for the touch you send

Too much quiet for now
I know why, how
Sound from you will soon be
Need never misses me

Picking up stones for my heart

These I carry to stand
These I carry to wait
These with you I breathe my way

Too much closeness to you
Too much to understand easy
Too lonely to be untrue

More than a friend in want
More than a song and dance
More than a call at night
More than a morning to light

Picking up stones for my heart

How real I've lived tells all
How real I've held on, been held
How real would end if not real

Picking up stones for my heart

These I carry to stand
These I carry to wait
These with you I breathe my way

7 20 10

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One Rooftop For Another Untrue

One roof top for another untrue
What would become of me, of you

I'm wondering my younger years
No need for today to share
I'm traveling my old days
No want to turn these away

I'm happy living my reasons
Looking through my changes
I'm at peace within my quiet
No care to move one moment

One roof top for another untrue
What would become of me, of you

Songs come, songs go
Some songs bring real my silence
I understand I could move on
What would become of my heart

Life can be hard some days
Love can find question to reach
Seems easier to give this all away

Only

One roof top for another untrue
What would become of me, of you

One rooftop for another untrue
What would become of me, of you

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Near You One Day

Near you one day
Near you never or somehow

Those last places I walked
The people once of heart
Closeness to you once
Closeness to my youth now

Near you one day
Near you never or somehow

Those last thoughts to think
The moments never move on
Careful to understand you
Cautious to what I lived through

Near you one day
Near you never or somehow

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How Many New Worlds

How many new worlds
From planet to planet
We all visit near, away
Should there be more
A cared for day

Held on a tide of life
Once you, now who
Thought for love
Friends true I hold
Sadness I hide from

How many new worlds
From planet to planet
We all visit near, away
Should there be more
A cared for day

May I take time to hear
A moment to there
May I carry a song
Do I know where

We stand between
Two lonely places
Me and you
We stand beside
Two lonely faces
You and I

How many new worlds
From planet to planet
We all visit near, away
Should there be more
A cared for day

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I Found You Once

I found you once
I can find you again

I thought of you once
I think of you again
I listen to were I was
I listen to where I am
I called to you once
I can call to you again

I found you once
I can find you again

I don't want to write
The same song and dance

I sit in silence
Something new must pass
I thank who I must
I give what I can
I lived you once
I can live you again

I found you once
I can find you again

I found you once
I can find you again

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I Hear The Acorns Fall

Sitting in the trees
Listening to the breeze
Watching a squirrel play
Looking at bugs walk away

A bird calls
I don't notice why
I can't answer the needs
Can't think of my own

I hear the acorns fall
Were there too many flowers
One day

Could I use a rabbit foot
Could I use you
How would this change me

Could I use life
Could I use love
What could I want
Means anything to me

I hear the acorns fall
Were there too many flowers
One day

I hear the acorns fall
Were there too many flowers
One day

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In The Yard

In the yard
With the sun in my eyes
I think of shade
Where you are

What becomes of sight
What becomes of sound
What becomes of day
Now day turns into night

What new will I find
What old will stay
What is life for now
What is love

In the yard
With the sun in my eyes
I think of shade
Where you are

What will have to be
What will not become
What have I to call mine

What of place never to leave
What of peace never to call
What do you have on your mind

In the yard
With the sun in my eyes
I think of shade
Where you are

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The Loss Of Friendship

The loss of friendship is my pain
The last turns to you then away

To listen to needs never answered
To watch for scenes I know well
To wait, to write, to understand
To notice you near again

The loss of friendship is my pain
The last turns to you then away

To move time as I please
To place people where I stand
To use all I have for life on you
To share the love was with you

The loss of friendship is my pain
The last turns to you then away

My world today grown from you
Every time I was alone
Any care I could use to believe
This was all on you, for you, me

The loss of friendship is my pain
The last turns to you then away

The loss of friendship is my pain
The last turns to you then away

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inspired by Deb Falcone
On An Open Road To Somewhere

On an open road to somewhere
Never to live as real

Could be a great adventure
Hard to give up home
Taking love with care
Having a nice day anywhere
One last hug, one last kiss
Will we meet again

On an open road to somewhere
Never to live as real

Tears are good for something
Feelings of loss for a friend
Listening to goodbyes
May never find hellos
If you do leave forever
I am still there

On an open road to somewhere
Never to live as real

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One True Friend

One true friend I was always to live you
One true friend I gave love for you
One true friend I was sent away from you

Why I must continue to feel feelings
Never going to get over you, the loss
Why I must continue to feel feelings

Why I must continue to wonder
Never going to walk away from you
Why I must continue to wonder

One true friend I was always to live you
One true friend I gave love for you
One true friend I was sent away from you

Oh I will never forget this day
How lovely you were to me, how real
Hope always with my wait answered

One true friend I was always to live you
One true friend I gave love for you
One true friend I was sent away from you

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Tell Me 

Tell me what are you thinking on this day of life
On this night of meaning for what should I find
On this love I hold of thought to speak
Tell me what do I touch on this day of life

7 31 10

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Careful Thought

Careful thought
Careful with love
Careful with life
Careful thought

Careful, easy
Careful to plan
Careful reason
Careful care

Careful thought
Careful with love
Careful with life
Careful thought

Cared for meaning
Cared for reading
Cared for seeing
Cared for listening

Cared for wonder
Cared for why

Careful thought
Careful with love
Careful with life
Careful thought

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I Stand Where I Can

Silent in tonight
Respect on my mind
Life needs to breath
Love to understand

Thought on you
What should be next
Until then I must be true
Care is a special world

I stand where I can

Easy days in the hard
Make what I must
Take what I can
Leave what I will

Look back when I need
Call on you
Call on who knows me
Continue to write

Then I stand where I can
What more do I have

I stand where I can
With good friends I find

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"Don't ask for the impossible from me,
I could never understand who I couldn't be." 8 8 10

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Where Do I Really Want To Be

Where do I really want to be

Running through old real memories
Moving back into my true old days
Looking at feelings once close
Watching now how far today is
Where will tomorrow find me

Where do I really want to be

Where do I really want to be

Remembering you, friends around
Hearing what may, may not live
Walking my favorite love song
Touching my favorite scenery
Calling for only one thing

Where do I really want to be

Where do I really want to be

When I can't change this moment
When I've tried everything
Prayed, asked angrily, sweetly
Used silence for the best of me

Where do I really want to be

Where do I really want to be

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When One Time Heros Move Away

When one time heros move away
Thoughts from home left to the day
Places to think, one time needs gone
On I move through a hold I want
When one time heros move away

When some time people stop by
Cares for why do I live within you
Cherish the feelings never grow old
Rest on the arms strong for you
When some time people stop by

When one time heros move away
Thoughts from home left to the day
Places to think, one time needs gone
On I move through a hold I want
When one time heros move away

When could I return to life I love
Will I return with another turn
What will I do to bring you true
Will this only be a motion from you
When could I return to life I love

When one time heros move away
Thoughts from home left to the day
Places to think, one time needs gone
On I move through a hold I want
When one time heros move away

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Anything Sweeter Than Our Peace

Anything new to say
Anything new to hear
Anything more than today
Anything better than tonight

Anything new to think
Anything new to believe
Anything new to feel
Anything new to see

Anything sweeter than our peace

Anything deeper than I, you
Anything greater than the sky
Anything warmer than you
Anything warmer than me

Anything different to walk
Anything different to run
Anything to share
Anything, a new care

Anything sweeter than our peace

Anything sweeter than our peace

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Hidden In My Haven

Hidden in my haven I must stay
As I hear and see what is called true
Whoever started the world, why
Forgotten hopes for rhyme

How could people be so cruel
Knowing the touch wrong passed on
Take young lives, turn into harm
Life unreal on this beautiful planet

How could people not care
Knowing the way sent isn't right
To each ones own we should give
Not to one own we are taken from

Hidden in my haven I must stay
As I hear and see what is called true
Whoever started the world, why
I reach forgotten hopes for rhyme

Just one more writing, one more
Just one more thing I want to say
Just one more night, day with you

Hidden in my haven I must stay
As I hear and see what is called true
Whoever started the world, why
Forgotten hopes for rhyme

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Almost As You Knew

Almost as you knew I would hold this night
I hadn't forgotten, was it wrong or right
How wonders never cease to flow

Almost as you knew I would be here today
I find thought easy, the scene so remembering
How I began to live near you then away

Almost as you knew I would come to you
In search of warmth, the understanding of me
How I've grown, why I chose what to say

Almost new every time I follow my need
A turn on my arm was to come to be now
How I've known, what I wait to hear

Almost as you knew I would hold this night
I hadn't forgotten, was it wrong or right
How wonders never cease to flow

Almost as you knew I would hold this night
I hadn't forgotten, was it wrong or right
How wonders never cease to flow

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Days Away From You

Days away from you
Turns into nothing new

Ways of life to move
Thanks for love to remember
How we choose
What becomes of youth

Days away from you
Turns into nothing new

Watching now pass by
What is true for my eyes
How we meet again
Where we age

Days away from you
Turns into nothing new

Days away from you
Turns into nothing new

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In My Eyes This Is My Greatest World

In my eyes this is my greatest world
I may not have much in some eyes
In my eyes this is my greatest world

I may not be understood, I may
I haven't my need, my want to say

Giving away my life I will not choose
Giving away my only love in thought
Giving away my time of day, night

Giving away my ending is my beginning
Giving away my feelings, I feel again
Giving away now for another time

In my eyes this is my greatest world
I may not have much in some eyes
In my eyes this is my greatest world

I may not be understood, I may
I haven't my need, my want to say

In my eyes this is my greatest world
I may not have much in some eyes
In my eyes this is my greatest world

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My Continuing Ways

My continuing ways
My hollywood days, my life
My friendships so hard to let end
My writings, the love I give
My emptiness, how a treasure
My world of wonder
My blessings, my escapes
My rings, my chains, real
My sounds from old, new
My thoughts, why now, true
My continuing ways

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My Life Is Called Home

My life is called home
As my love in you was shown
As much as I would like to let go
My life is called home

When I can hear you think
When I know what you pray
When I feel your feelings
When I understand who you are

My life is called home
As my love in you was shown
As much as I would like to let go
My life is called home

You returned me through you
Call from any place you stand
You answered my need in you
Say whatever you plan

Your want for you is my only want

My life is called home
As my love in you was shown
As much as I would like to let go
My life is called home

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Only One More Minute

Only one more minute
Only one more tune
Only one more reason
To use on you

One more thing to say
One more thing to write
One more day to wait
One more night to believe
One more way to see
One more thought to think
One more idea to hear

Only one more minute
Only one more tune
Only one more reason
To use on you

One more touch of closeness
One more need to explain
One more want to be alone
One more only one avenue
One more street to walk
One more prayer to use
One more close of my eyes
One more waking quest
One more minute please

Only one more minute
Only one more tune
Only one more reason
To use on you

Only one more minute
Only one more tune
Only one more reason
To use on you

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You Would Not Let Me Down

You would not let me down
Of all of the people on this earth
You would not let me down

So few people raised me into today
You as how I found life to use
Home on how love is shown
To break my faith I can't imagine

I would begin from where I started
As you may return through your time

You would not let me down (he wouldn't let me down)
Of all of the people on this earth
You would not let me down

To think you would leave me behind
Forget to leave me with the tune I need
Your growth would not let you
Your heart would be empty and alone

You would not let me down (he wouldn't let me down)
Of all of the people on this earth
You would not let me down

Now I may appear I don't speak well
I overlook some thoughts for others
I never overlook you

I may seem far from everyone around you
I only distance myself to write

You would not let me down
Of all of the people on this earth
You would not let me down

You would not let me down (he would not let me down)
Of all of the people on this earth
You would not let me down

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To Think

To think
Of the so many places
I could have traveled
Only to give away
For one place of peace
To find writings
I deeply want to speak

To think
Of the so many times
I refused to talk
The days, the nights
The hardships for this life
To find my love
I deeply need to love

To think
Of where I can't be now
Where I can't return to
Where
I have no idea to tomorrow
To think
How often I thought to quit
Sure of you every turn I choose
Only to find this silence
To think

To think

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Movies Are Made To Bore Me

Movies are made to bore me
To find nothing better to live
To change my view on alone
To turn wrong what love means

I've seen the idea, outside talk
Out of time, no thanks for me
Cops and robbers, pocket change
Lives just keep moving around

I'm just a little writer, sing my song
Once in awhile I hum a tune
Some days appear better in alone
The rest of nights is my life

Movies are made to bore me
To find nothing better to live
To change my view on alone
To turn wrong what love means

This chair I sit on in my room
Nothing around but me
To hear the real truth about myself
To notice the real truth about you

Movies are made to bore me
To find nothing better to live
To change my view on alone
To turn wrong what love means

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ALIVE AS I AM

 

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Who Can I Be

Where can I look
Where can I see
How can I hear
Who can I be

What can I think to feel beautiful
When I wake to sleep
Go through time
Love it comes around
Love if it does

Where can I look
Where can I see
How can I hear
Who can I be

What can I dream to feel inside
Wish for is my very own
True I can find one day as mine
Life it comes around
Life it does

Where can I look
Where can I see
How can I hear
Who can I be

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Don't know what more I can live for you
All to write should say what I go through
Trust in life, trust in love, I still trust you
As sad as my life seems there is happy time
How my life moves I can read thoughts true
People with hands for care not for me
What would you say now I wait to hear

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What is there to do when I love you
How is there to sleep but to you
What more would I wait on
If I didn't wait on you
Who would I turn to if not you
When alone I should never be
How I feel about you for my way
I don't ask why, never have
Anyone in the world could send life
I wouldn't reach, I wouldn't touch

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This Is Who I Am

This is who I am

I don't want to own a mountain
I don't want to be bigger
I want only what I need to live
How I feel my love should give

This is who I am

I write to pass my time lonely
Forget how wrong this world is
I write to use my freedom to speak

This is who I am

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writing of Michael  2007

Doesn't Matter What You Say

Doesn't matter what you say

The voice, the heart, broken silence
The innocence forgotten, now found

Outside will be erased away
Blinders fit better along side
There is a future to feel for

Doesn't matter what you say

Never too old to care
I'll never be the same

Doesn't matter what you say

11 7 07

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I will have to create a life for the faves of my time
An after earth to walk into with the love should be found
My faith, want and heart I will have to hold peace for
My love for those very few, a freedom of soul
The care it takes, the touch, the warmth of value
Means to be in any world for those I miss the most
My classic wants, my classic needs, my classic thoughts

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writing of Michael 2005

Be a lesson to you
Then move on
Not a moment to pass
Without love around
Held so alone
On my own page from you
Seems wrong
I understand you with truth
But I do

5-19-05

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Weather doesn't change the color of trees
Seasons don't turn what autumn brings
Palms may sway with the signs of sea
Sounds I ask for never near
Tell me something I want to hear
I may smile a bit

11 24 06

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writing of Michael 1998

Why do I walk by you so always
Then I try again the next day
If just to see you real
If just to watch you walk away
Why can't I have anything to say
Oh about love I don't need to hear
Unless in yours round near

8 27 98

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Every Season

Every season

Every season
I was trying to tell you
What you meant to me

I was trying to protect you
I know this seems strange
Love does act in strange ways

Prayer for you anywhere I am
Spare you from harm
What happened then

My wishes on hold for reason
From you my wait on hold

Every season
I was trying to tell you
What you meant to me

Every season
Drifted apart we continued
Never apart I wrote of you
I would look at you anyway
For what was mine to believe
From you

Every season

Every season
I was trying to tell you
What you meant to me

Every season
I was trying to tell you
What you meant to me

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writing of Michael 1992

When I had to stop dreaming of you
I stopped remembering you were true
Alive seemed to disappear
I didn't want to move

10 17 92

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writing of Michael 1996

As long as I touched your heart true
I was sure I moved you
The days weren't hard, the time involved
The giving of my love worth the gift

6-16-96

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writing of Michael april 2010

Old days sent to move me
Tunes of peace, sweetness
Departed loves, lives, times
Forgotten forevers in my mind
Meetings beyond now
What else is there to do in the rain
Think of birds getting drenched in the sky
Run away people, run away pets
Listen for you until I hear why

...........................

 

2005 writing

I will never write again
Never trust in love
Think life for a meaning
Care to hear of song
Feel another feeling
Look to see of why
I will never write again

3 17 05

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writing of Michael 2008

You left a touch
I walked upon the sun
You turned the bend
I hid within my thought
You spoke to me once
I never talked again
You left a tear
I found more than my share
You carried your heart
I hid your heart away from harm
You offered a world
I left the earth
You shadowed my cloud
I thanked you
You mentioned the pure
I reasoned a light
Too much for me to learn
A share of your hold
A choice in the cold
My belief, my idea
Darkness can be seen
Show my future without sky
A present I never receive

11 08

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writing of Michael 2009


page 1

I hear the world is still moving round
People singing the same old song
Feelings never to change I carry around
Listening to thoughts I wait to respond

page 2

I see tomorrow will be used by today
Into the comfort of my heart and way
Through these clouds never needed to wait
I spend my time in the sky again

page 3

Whatever happened to page three
I decide held more than I now need read
To cherish you again from my want
Answered with the need I always speak of

3 6 09

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writing of Michael 1996

How many ways can I say I will miss you
Find myself holding me within thinking of you
I can't play someone I can't become
I need your soothing touch for my love
I haven't watched for elsewhere
How many ways can I ask the lord again

10 4 96

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writing of Michael 2009

Wherever You May Be

Wherever you may be
There comes a day
There comes a night
Wherever you may be

A share of time with the wind
A look upon the sea
I hear how water waves
By the sound of thought I breath
I need not see
I need not feel a thing
Beyond my love for you

Wherever you may be
There comes a day
There comes a night
Wherever you may be

This hill I rest upon
What more I need to speak
Should I continue to write
Leave, never look again
Could I be home once
Isn't this enough to understand
How I don't ask for much
Why I don't think more to live

Wherever you may be
There comes a day
There comes a night
Wherever you may be

6 07 09

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My Wants Will Be Answered 

I will not listen to just any words
I will not hear just any melody
However famous anyone becomes
As a friend of mine, as not
I have my likes, I have my needs
My wants will be answered

7 11 04

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writing of Michael 2004

Takes A Lot For Me To Speak

Takes a lot for me to speak
Takes a lot for me to talk
Takes a lot from you
Always has taken, takes
Takes a lot for me to speak

Return to those hard thought times
Finish my beginning about you
Follow how I trusted you
Continue to believe
Play my day my way

Takes a lot for me to talk
Feel a feeling to sing
Care for my night
Turn dark into light

Takes a lot for me to speak
Takes a lot for me to talk
Takes a lot from you
Always has taken, takes
Takes a lot for me to speak

Say true of you
Send through to you

Takes a lot to open my door
You know to bring real
Call for my love to share again
Takes a lot to open my door

Takes a lot for me to speak
Takes a lot for me to talk
Takes a lot from you
Always has taken, takes
Takes a lot for me to speak

.......................................

"Yesterday speaks louder than words."

You Were Gold To Me

You were gold to me
The only gold could ever be

I remember
When I first took your shoes
Lay them in front of me
How I used to look at you
How life could be

I would dream of love until
Until love came to me within
I wouldn't let go
You meant so much to me

You were gold to me
The only gold could ever be

I danced with you
I sang for you
I longed for you
I wantd you so much

You were gold to me
The only gold could ever be

...............................

writing of Michael 2004

My Ride In The Morning

My ride in the morning is you
My home in my heart always

Everything I love to do
The sun, the sand, the shade
The life I live

Every room to share
Every hold of me near
Every not so easy to find care

My ride in the morning is you
My home in my heart always

Not in love, just love
I will always be there
Not in love, just love

My ride in the morning is you
My home in my heart always

8 12 04

.............

Every time I go to sit along side of my favorite thought
I never find you there as once was my very own
I then look at the ride I made to turn my moment
Into why make another day where I won't feel different
If only to hold a sun, a breeze, outdoors as seems
I won't have anything other than I see only me
The night, the evening, the wait you will be round again
How do I then make morning, day my everlasting
Wanted or not in these memories, what are they for
Why do I need another sky to show through my door
To be offered near everything, my perfect harmony
My place of peace hidden away in you, my reason
There isn't much more to love as life away from you

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Those people to touch me
Some I know, some never seen
But my writings are of my life
My real time on this earth and why
How I was near you at times
How I was away
Who carried me through
For the closeness of my need
If I spent my day, night on anyone
I would never share how I hold you
What away from you meant, means
What watching you now says to me

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writing of Michael around 1993

Going Around

Going around
I know my baby
Close or far
If he has something for me
Or nothing at all
I can tell when he thinks
Why he isn't in thought
Never following him
With him at all times
Love is something within
Add then to the outside
Still missing the very love
Going around
Going around

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writing of Michael 2009

Isolated Free

In this night
As so many
I was sure of you

Talked into my quiet
Strong some days
Weak now

Unsure of my time

Isolated free
Could seem extreem

Needed to speak
Needed to be needed
As I need

You may learn
There is no way out
Find all

Isolated free

1 07 09

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Old Friends Always Win

You know now
Our summer nights
When missing

Those to care true
The price high
Worth the prayer

Old friends always win

Gifted trust
A wait through
Seems impossible
Well you know now

My life
In a few words

Old friends always win

You know now
My thought
In love of a meaning

My freedom for you
My way now to grow
My way to you

Now

Where do you go friend

Old friends always win

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Why Only In Your Words

Why only in your words must I leave
Why only in your day must I be
Without your presence what is left of me

The very life of me is passing by
Not something I so call for my eyes
The very mind I keep in thought
For my way to see through tonight
The very hold on my world

Everything I lived to create, touch
I must understand again from a man
A man who asked me to wait
A man who pulled on my arm
To show me all he was made of

Why only in your words must I leave
Why only in your day must I be
Without your presence what is left of me

I have been through more than I need
I am not saying worse or easy
I have trusted more than I could learn
Torn by why you were my very love

Why only in your words must I leave
Why only in your day must I be
Without your presence what is left of me

...................................................

There is always forever to be with you
Always another day to look into
Another way to feel, another thought
There is always forever to be with you

10 2 09

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Never With A Home Again

Never with a home again
I wait until one within
Never with my life I live
I think until never again

Never within trust
Never within heart
Never within love I need

Never with a home again
I wait until one within
Never with my life I live
I think until never again

Nver within my hold
Never within my touch
Never within only my want

Never within only my feelings
Never within my faith within

Never with a home again
I wait until one within
Never with my life I live
I think until never again

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I Miss My Heros

I miss my heros
I miss my heros once close

I miss my time in Hollywood
One day may make it real again
Find me a magic castle
Like the one I believe in true
Take the way of sound
Change how today comes around
Bring old friends closer than memory

I miss my heros
I miss my heros once close

I miss the dream I once held
Though now wouldn't fit me well
I still have deep ties to why I lived
Why I cared so, how I waited
What you meant to me

I miss how my eyes looked
The shine inside for you
What heart then meant for love
What trust I carried as life

I miss my heros
I miss my heros once close

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Between Us

Somewhere to be one day
Something to see in peace
Outside turns within always
Inside of my mind in quiet

Nowhere to be one days
Nothing to see different
To speak of what one nights
To reach for you again

Between us

Somehow I believe in you
Somewhere within never to want
Answers will come from you
Waits don't bother me none

Battered by wind doesn't move
Casual air I blend with
My price for you
Has always been free

Between us

Anything new
Do we have to see

Between us

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Or Will You

In any touch of love along my way
Will never be your love
In any song to play during my day
Will never be your sun
I may hold of life
Will never be your hold
In any word spoken
The meaning will not be yours
This time I now miss you
Will never be seen by you
The darkness of my night
This won't show a deeper hurt
In any writing yet I may write
My hardest feelings to get through
The loss of you, empty my my heart
The reality never with you
This loneliness I stand with
You will never know as lonely
Or will you

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writing of Michael 1998

Even If Alone Forever

Even if alone forever
Peaceful I will stay
I am quiet in my only desire
I will not give away

Taken away from you again
By a touch of life I don't enjoy
By time I never ask to share
For thoughts
For words aren't mine to use

Even if alone forever
Peaceful I will stay
I am quiet in my only desire
I will not give away

In a direction I don't pray to see
Along a motion isn't from me
Upon a day outside of my love
To fall over my own night

Even if alone forever
Peaceful I will stay
I am quiet in my only desire
I will not give away

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My Only Friend Was You

My only friend was you
My forever known
People in my life never to end

Travel without feeling
These years
Belief lost to
My life can't you hear

My only friend was you
My touch true
My only friend was you

Never would you forget me

My only friend was you
My forever known
People in my life never to end

My only friend was you
My touch true
My only friend was you

................................

A new story every day
Wonder unreal to explain
Read into love, walk through life
A way to dream for each other 7-12-09

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One Small Reason

Living in heaven
Living in hell
Time always passing
Along side of me

One small reason
My love for you

Living in wisdom
Living in peace
Sounds easy
Picture perfect
Memories never leave

One small answer
Your love for me

I must feel feelings
I must give thanks
Everything from you
Been wondering now
What could I do

One small reason
My love for you

All day
Never a new day
All night
Never a new night
In every way
Does it matter
What I say

One small reason
My love for you

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writing of Michael 1993

What Made You Play My Heart

What made you play my heart
To make you mine tonight
As I feel I was born
To hold the little I find
To reach only what is true
From what I know my dream is

What made you play my heart
Above me knows what is true
What made you long to touch me
Every time I longed to be touched by you

I can return to yesterday live again

What made you play my heart
To make you mine tonight
As I feel I was born
To hold the little I find
To reach only what is true
From what I know my dream is

I know my need, how I want
Who I am, how I feel right
How many times I must ask to be alive

How many places I have to look
This love as my very own
The life I was born to hold
The little I find to enjoy
How I open the sky
Just long enough to see the light
The eyes to glow for me

What made you play my heart
To make you mine tonight
As I feel I was born
To hold the little I find
To reach only what is true
From what I know my dream is

10 19 93

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writing of Michael after stated death

So Many Times I Thought Of You

So many times I thought of you
The meaning to you in my life
Everything one wish turned into
Tonight I continue to feel

Never did I once think twice
Always with trust in you
Your gift near at my prayer
Your gift near at my thought

So many times I thought of you
The meaning to you in my life
Everything one wish turned into
Tonight I continue to feel

Never has a day gone by
Without atleast one tear in my eye
Sure I found special people
Special people but never enough

Always so sure of you
Always to hold on for you
Always to wait and watch
I still do

So many times I thought of you
The meaning to you in my life
Everything one wish turned into
Tonight I continue to feel

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...to think for the past 30 years I spent my life writing of you...
what was I thinking....... 8 25 10

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 My Writing Days

My writing days
Of winter now
My lovely ways
Of summer once
My wait for you
Through autumn
My quiet truth
Of spring to call
My one heart
This all I have
My one love
My one life
Many turns
To notice why
I don't need
To see you
To know
Where you are

11 09

 

The gifts of surroundings I fall amid
The friendships are there I have made
The day, the music, my extra weight
No I am not happy only less afraid
For age, date and time, raisings a way
All basically seems the same
I carry who I have known as myself
I find dreams but not the one I own
I've been disbelieved when true and real
Months sent however over how I feel
My very most important please to god here
To stand where I began for awhile
To know what it's like to hurt and cry

edited from 6 14 02 / 1 25 10

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this is always my thought for Michael

Give one good reason to listen to you
One good thought for my love to you
One good need I will find answer
One good want to never want again

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Nice music, a beginning for thought, could be a nice thought more in need for my heart." 2-13-05

Touching Sounds

 Touching sounds hurt the hardest
The deepest to leave
The worse to forget
The music to take the heart
The call of understanding
The cry for love
That need for real hope answered

1 24 09

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"I never wanted to be myself. I always wanted to be someone else." 5 10 2008

Love In God

Love in god
The most innocent of all
Life in lord true of life

For every day to move along
For all I have learned
Born of mind, alienated from heart

Love in god
The greatest yet to hear
A walk down memory, future again

To understand, miss reason to feel
Look into who do I become
One simple meaning of touch

Love in god, shy and bright
Broken promises, hidden words

Love in god the best I know
Life in lord all I can say

Love in god

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Some Thoughts

Some thoughts can be left behind
Some thoughts stay in one place
Some thoughts speak of real life
Some thoughts choose silence
Some thoughts won't understand
What else could be in the world

Where I was that one day from you
Where I stay I continue to play
You were too sweet to give away

Everytime I walk through you
I can speak of true times alive
Tough to feel different, find a change

Some thoughts can be left behind
Some thoughts stay in one place
Some thoughts speak of real life
Some thoughts choose silence
Some thoughts won't understand
What else could be in the world

There were moments I tried to forget
The meaning to you in my love
Those special times can never end

Some thoughts can be left behind
Some thoughts stay in one place
Some thoughts speak of real life
Some thoughts choose silence
Some thoughts won't understand
What else could be in the world

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"One day I will truly be happy." One day....... 8 19 2008

Will You Ever Come Home

 Will you ever come home
My soul dies every day
I'm away from your love
My life cries in every way
Gone from your arms
My love doesn't know what to do
Without your love
Will you ever come home

1 23 10

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My Trust In You Was So Great

I can see the moment I waited on you
Touch my reason of coloring true
How much of my life I gave for you
The words spoken, thoughts held

My trust in you was so great
Your friendship never a mistake
Love was real from you, from me

What appeared as young nights
I gave away many fun times
What may have been had I changed
Where would I be today

My trust in you was so great
Your friendship never a mistake
Love was real from you, from me

Who I hear now until you return
Why I stop on this tune once played
Not only a song as a radio says
Grown reaches I was handed by you

My trust in you was so great
Your friendship never a mistake
Love was real from you, from me

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"Is there a way to replace today?" 09 16 08

Follow The Old Days True

I will

Follow the old days true, hear the old songs blue
Remember you as I would be in meaning with
A walk beyond the sound of a sea doesn't belong

Looks like this sadness is going to be around awhile
Unless you move us forward, bring around a smile
Looks like writing will be my friend in you awhile

Hard to say anything more than I already have
Hard to believe you won't answer me again

I will

Follow the old days true, hear the old songs blue
Remember you as I would be in meaning with
A walk beyond the sound of a sea doesn't belong

What time tries to change seems to remain
What I ask from you never fails answered anyway
What I find around the next corner I must wait
You won't forget to hear my want from you

I will

Follow the old days true, hear the old songs blue
Remember you as I would be in meaning with
A walk beyond the sound of a sea doesn't belong

I will

Follow the old days true, hear the old songs blue
Remember you as I would be in meaning with
A walk beyond the sound of a sea doesn't belong

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I Miss My Old Days

I miss my old days
More than I miss life
Love
What is called home
I miss my old days
Not always happy
Some hard to get by
Always was
Always a smile around
I miss my old days

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Why I Am Who I Am Today

Some rains fall just right
Other pains hurt too deep
Some laughter is kind
Other laughter low to night
Some hopes never real
Other hopes my own to feel

Some people are now gone
Some remain

Why I am who I am today

Some cares meaningful
Other cares meaningless
Some changes good for heart
Other changes not so smart
Some worlds well with love
Other worlds love without love

Some lives will do anything to live
Other lives fight for right within

Why I am who I am today

Some times are memorable
Other times easy to pass away

Some people are now gone
Some remain

Why I am who I am today

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On Balboa Island In The Winter Time

On Balboa island in the winter time
Summer too full of guests
In wait of you, until I return to you
On Balboa Island in the winter time

From island to penninsula to island again
I ride along this forever life I live
Quiet in the day, empty in the night
Only the ocean moves my thought to say
My home remains far away
A peace to run, a walk to spend

On Balboa island in the winter time
Summer too full of guests
In wait of you, until I return to you
On Balboa Island in the winter time

To hold well for a moment, but not heart
To watch sails, seek through the yatchts
Wander the roads again this years end
Beauty lost inside of my want
Remembering along side of my need
Collected of my time, am I
Called to for why, a bridge to cross again

On Balboa island in the winter time
Summer too full of guests
In wait of you, until I return to you
On Balboa island in the winter time

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If I don't grow a new heart my old must be warm enough. 9 11 10

My Week In Hollywood

My week in hollywood
Once to never then
Will all time return
Now explain itself
A theme of who
A thought on who
My week in hollywood

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A Precious Mind

A precious mind must be left to grow
With a clock or two of who knows
A precious mind as a quiet toy

A precious mind is hard to find
The love for a precious mind at times lost
The life, care, world of warmth, treasure
Ease to a precious mind must be gentle

A precious mind must be left to grow
With a clock or two of who knows
A precious mind as a quiet toy

A precious mind, body and soul
Heart, spirit do we all really know
We look from the ground into a sky
Try looking from the sky into my eyes

A precious mind must be left to grow
With a clock or two of who knows
A precious mind as a quiet toy

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I Only Play Tunes Care For Me

I only play tunes care for me
The song must sing complete

I only play with my memories
The days of my life
The people in my hello time

What I left behind, why
Where I was, in my need now
Never to hold today wrong

My way of who I am always
How I miss, who I miss, why

I only play tunes care for me
The song must sing complete

I only play my real turns
The nights of my want
Gifts shared I received, why

From the very mention of me
For my treasure to carry true

My never again, moments gone
Who I was, everyone to me, why

I only play tunes care for me
The song must sing complete

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How Did We Have To Live

How did we have to live
Who did we have to be

A thought written of one friend
Then I find to the next
Where will this story of mine end

Reading along side of a tune
What is a meaning now to you
From time to time

How did we have to live
Who did we have to be

If I stopped on every word, phrase
Corrected all I share
I would have lost interest in you

Often lines sound fun, my interest
I leave well alone when I feel

How did we have to live
Who did we have to be

I look beyond imagination
I see into real life, the true
What isn't taught when younger
To some
What we learn along our way

A thought written of one friend
Then I find to the next
Where will this story of mine end

Reading along side of a tune
What is a meaning now to you
From time to time

How did we have to live
Who did we have to be

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Where Did My Always With You Go

Everyone loves a good song
Relaxing enough to think of life
Return into ways once were
People precious along one times
Given reason to sing along
Feel feelings ahead to who

Where did my always with you go

Who means the world to hold
A touch once was
Could never now be lost

Everyone needs the friend cherished
Friends cared for now
The treasure from you I call on
I wait to hear
Once again as my always

Where did my always with you go

Who means the world to hold
A touch once was
Could never now be lost

Where did my always with you go

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Feeling Like Today

Peaceful alones always
High times resting on the low
Tides of thought flow
Giving thanks where thanks belongs

Asking for no new things today
Following tunes of why
Love moves close then away

Feeling like today
NYC life and LA
What should I live for now

Hoping for you to come through
Come through again soon
Leaving some memories behind
Walking back around to you
Others from my time

Feeling like today
NYC life and LA
What should I live for now

Should I quit writing of you
What will I do
No repeat ways
Not only a song true

Feeling like today
NYC life and LA
What should I live for now

Feeling like today
NYC life and LA
What should I live for now

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I get so involved in my writing there is no different life. 9 11 10

 

Not Easy

Not easy to feel any feeling for you

Not easy to write of just anyone
Not easy to think of just anyone
Not easy to be happy to write sad
Not easy to read of just anything

Not easy to tell everything I know
Not easy to show everything I show
Not easy to live in any way I find
Not easy to love in a different time

Not easy to feel any feeling for you

Not easy to share my days as I do
Not easy to rest into my night true
Not easy to explain who I am, why
Not easy to settle into quiet time

Not easy to feel any feeling for you

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There Is Always One (Forgotten Love)

There is always one

There is always one forgotten love
One forgotten moment never lost
One place to turn when times are tough
One thought from missing life somewhere

There is always one hope on the horizon
One trusted move never moves on
One until this earth is long gone
One new place to find coming sometime

There is always one
Always one, there is always one
There is always one

There is always one stepping stone to live
One way back into what we held
One color, one sound, one something
One wake of the mind never sleeps

There is always one
Always one, there is always one
There is always one

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Sad Plays With My Eyes

Sad plays with my eyes
Sad seems more valuable than
All to ask why

Sad takes sadness to write a good word
Turn a few then into thoughts of real
Hard on my mind if not all of my world

Sad takes my feelings through my life
Touches my love with great heart
Impossible to live on a different day

Sad plays with my eyes
Sad seems more valuable than
All to ask why

Sad turns my joy into joy at night
Take my choice through my delight
Follows me until I recognize

Sad plays with my eyes
Sad seems more valuable than
All to ask why

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Where Do I Want To Go Now

Where do I want to go now
Write of who, how
What do I want to see, hear
Think of, feel, find
Grow away from, grow into
Stay with my need, want, wait
What do I want to do
In comfort with tonight
On hold with a day
Where do I want to go now

California time 8:31pm 12 31 10

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Buy A New Day For Who

Buy a new day for who
Eat, work, sleep as so a boring life
Hooking up after to pass the night by
Remembering old times, beginning new
Finding words to say, thinking what is true
Buy a new day for who

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After All Of These Years

Back in time I return
Out of history I run
For a few moments
Of what is thought
What is my reason

After all of these years

I feel the same as
As when I waited
With all of my faith
I would never end
How could I believe

After all of these years

A melody I don't hear
A sight of wonder
A new way to care
Never more than
The first touch from you

After all of these years

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Sights I Look To Cherish

I don't need an award for who I am

I need the life I enjoy I live

Sights I look to cherish

I need the casual friendships I remember
To be reminded of your love absent
How I came to today, why now
To be reminded of your love absent

Sights I look to cherish

I need the love I enjoy to love

Sights I look to cherish

12 24 10

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Show Me Love 
 

Show me love has to love with me
Life has to live me, for me
Far from this uncaring world I see
Show me love has to love with me

12 24 10

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Where Did Our Young Days Go

Where did our young days go
Our always we never thought to throw away

Living for the night through old friends
Spending a thought on why I now find
Playing time once was my real life
Sending what takes a heart by surprise
Returning because of your touch on mine

Where did our young days go
Our always we never thought to throw away

Walking our streets again, our streets never end
Our streets, don't you remember our streets
The love we held for eachother could never leave

Looking at those turns we took to never change

Where did our young days go
Our always we never thought to throw away

Where did our young days go
Our always we never thought to throw away

But didn't you hear yourself say

Living for the night through old friends
Spending a thought on why I now find
Playing time once was my real life
Sending what takes a heart by surprise
Returning because of your touch on mine

Where did our young days go
Our always we never thought to throw away

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Unspeakable Truths

Unspeakable truths
Some minds can't understand
Unspeakable truths
Stories
Mysteries
Reality
Unspeakable truths

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"What was mine is mine. What is mine is mine. What will be mine is mine. This is all is to my life." 6 24 09

My Sweetest Moments

My sweetest moments
My peaceful times of you
My warmest thoughts
My coldest feelings for you
My smallest words
My hope inside for you
My sweetest moments

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This Night

This night
When I call out
To be heard by you
This night

This night
In everyone
There is need for life
Love understands
How we grow

This night
Why we change
One time turns
About you, about me

This night
When I call out
To be heard by you
This night

This night
My thought
Remains on once again
Beyond
These lost feelings now

This night
When I call out
To be heard by you
This night

This night
When I call out
To be heard by you
This night

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Show Me One Thought

Show me one thought
More valuable than you for me

The time, the life, the love
I can't move away from
The nights, the days, the reasons

Every time I move to change
I fall back on you again

I see lives out and about
I don't hear why become anybody
I carry you with me already

Show me one thought
More valuable than you for me

If you can show me one thought
One thought worth my mind to think
I will gladly set my writing aside

Show me one thought
More valuable than you for me

I know I am right
No one need explain this to me

Show me one thought
More valuable than you for me

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Why We Walk Together

Not a puzzle
Not so strange
Not unreal
Noone to blame
Not untrue
Not a loss
Not a lesson
Never will we learn

Why we walk together
Never far away
From each other

Not to see
Not to hear
Not to think
Not to believe
Not a care
Nothing new to me

Why we walk together
Never far away
From each other

Not of life
All for life
Not of love
All for love
Not of time
For all time

Why we walk together
Never far away
From each other

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My Touching Yesterdays

My touching yesterdays
You always there for me

I love my old friends
The best in the world

My touching yesterdays
You always there for me

11-4-10

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The Bright Side Of Life

The bright side of life

Good for thought and change
A different look on once again
Once a memory always today

The bright side of life

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Pain Is What Never Goes Away 

Pain is what never goes away

Last year is over, didn't you hear
Love is still alive, I know where
No need to worry, time moves the same

Pain is what never goes away

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Peaceful Eyes At Rest

Peaceful eyes at rest
I feel you in the air
Blown to keep me calm
No longer wait to here
Once friends as friends always
Peaceful eyes at rest

Peaceful eyes at rest
A song, a story, a home
On this side of my life
Another life to share
What was to follow then
Peaceful eyes at rest

Peaceful eyes at rest
Read how please may sound
If only to spend my time
On love from a child
I never held
Peaceful eyes at rest

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I Like The Deep Sea

I like the deep sea
Heart as more than world
Hope as life lasts beyond
Care for feelings hard to share
Real miracles meant to feel
Silence along with the fear
Waits with answers to hear
I like true need made for me
My change would be nice please
I like the deep sea

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What Would Be Now

What would be now
If I could go back in time
Relive true how real my life was

I wish I could go back in time
Relive true how real my life was
Now find the feelings again shared
Change today from happening here

The same people, same thoughts
The streets I walked, who talked
The closeness, share the far, had we
Hold through the moments then now

What would be now
If I could go back in time
Relive true how real my life was

So many missing memories to love
The ones I remember I can't touch

What would be now
If I could go back in time
Relive true how real my life was

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Noone Likes To Move On

Noone likes to move on
When home was love

Everything to a young life
Everyone to a young want
All was to be a young need

Noone likes to move on
When home was love

The days to wake a smile
The nights to sleep a smile
Never a thought as ending

The people with warm hearts
Places of travel always real
Together never missing

Noone likes to move on
When home was love

Between us couldn't be lost

Noone likes to move on
When home was love

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the nickname given to me now is Miss Hollywood lol

 

I live nowhere
I am noone
I don't exist to anyone

10 20 10

For Me

Whatever time I can find
I use on a word to write
I been everywhere I need
Met everyone I liked
If a friend wants to be true
I will share a moment or two
I will not change
Whatever time I can find

For me

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Penninsula Point

Icy rock ways, sandy lands
Watered far aways, green close

Penninsula point

Grass of one days, times of orange
To watch now for clouds of joy
Little church days with loved for wood

Icy rock ways, sandy lands
Watered far aways, green close

Penninsula point

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Like the darkness
Too much sadness
Missing light.... 10 8 10

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Steps Of Love I Find

Steps of love I find
I don't know more than music
Sounds of time running by
Steps of love I find

I look at life from my memories
See my travels alive in today
Reach through the night again
Write a tune to stay awake

Steps of love I find
I don't know more than music
Sounds of time running by
Steps of love I find

If I would change
Could I change

Steps of love I find
I don't know more than music
Sounds of time running by
Steps of love I find

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Never Easy To Believe

Never easy to believe
In losing you

Never easy to believe
Never to return to special times
Never to replace those special times
Never to leave, never to stay
Never to understand why, how
Never to imagine you real again

Never easy to believe
Never to wait as I once waited
Never to say hello, hear you speak
Never to grow those same feelings
Never to follow you, walk before you
Never to imagine you true again

Never easy to believe
In losing you

Never beside you as was meant to be

Never easy to believe
In losing you

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This Is Not Just Another Song Night 

This is not just any song night
Move on through time again
Read pictures for a sight
Write feelings to make right
Listen to live anywhere
Love to be not anyone
This is not just any song night

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"How could I forget who makes me laugh and cry in the same way?" 9 23 10

 

Every Day Is A Crazy Day Without You

Every day is a crazy day without you
Nothing more to do with my time
Life is made of a missing mind
Love is lost to the sound of sky

Somewhere in what is called inside
Somewhere in what is called normal
As every night is a crazy night for why

Every day is a crazy day without you
Nothing more to do with my time
Life is made of a missing mind
Love is lost to the sound of sky

A look for the different to appear
A search for the rare of what is near
A care for heart in what heart is

Every day is a crazy day without you
Nothing more to do with my time
Life is made of a missing mind
Love is lost to the sound of sky

Every day is a crazy day without you
Nothing more to do with my time
Life is made of a missing mind
Love is lost to the sound of sky

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Those Old Times

One more day
To find the truth
Watch my way
Along about you
Find my real times
For my wait
See as I

Those old times
With you

Ask of you
Cleanse your soul
Let us move
Falling back on you
Let us play life
See who wins
Let us bare all
I care to understand

Those old times
With you

I don't challenge many
I do you
Every turn to take
Knew as mine

Those old times
With you

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I Believe In You

I believe in you
Always believed in you

I hold my love distant
Watch from your life
Listen to how you feel
Thankful how I live
Try not to say the same
In every new thought
I speak

I believe in you
Always believed in you

I hold my love distant
I send silence to you
Secrets move as the need
To wait on you
I only touch you
How you touch me true
Beside you

I believe in you
Always believed in you

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Breaking Free Of Reality

Breaking free of reality
Breaking free of love
Breaking free of life
Life as life is now

Breaking free of reality
Breaking free of hurt
Breaking free of joy
I may not believe in

Breaking free of reality
Cold tears and old wars

Breaking free of reality
Breaking free of care
Breaking free of reason
I don't see as good

Breaking free of reality
Breaking free of true
Breaking free of want
Need I don't ask to hold

Breaking free of reality
Cold tears and old wars

Breaking free of reality
Poured into my mind
Sent for me to think
I don't agree with most

Breaking free of reality
Cold tears and old wars

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To Reach My Next Song

To reach my next song

I lived every day with you on my mind
I waited every night for a new touch
I thought of every way to send my need
I believed without fail on your want

To reach my next song

I held on with a few friends, I still hold
I call to you silently all to be heard
I watch with intrigue behind closed eyes
I wonder for your next turn to mine

To reach my next song

I find a mistake to correct you with
I live once again what today is, will be
I read of my once again for you
I end with a writing or possibly two

To reach my next song

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Fun Gets Old

Fun gets old
As the sun at day light
Life wants to travel
All of time lines

Fun gets old
As the pass of time
Words become cold
As often as night
Thoughts want to grow
Grow beyond now

Fun gets old
As the sun at day light
Life wants to travel
All of time lines

Fun gets old
As the rest on love
Hurts want to speak
As much as joys
If not more
For the soothe of calm

Fun gets old
As the sun at day light
Life wants to travel
All of time lines

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What Can I Share With You Now

What can I share with you now

Every turn I take isn't new
Places to be aren't where I am
Sounds to hear are only true

Days to see never change
Nights to never feel real

What can I share with you now

A thought never seems to end
A new thought never with you
A thought together never lost

What can I share with you now

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Who Could Explain Reason I Know

Who could explain reason I know
Fortune has many desires to play
What will tomorrow be of me
Something new to say of an old feeling

I just don't know what I can change
With how my life is today
My writing keeps my alive close
You keep my thought moving true

Who could explain reason I know
Fortune has many desires to play
What will tomorrow be of me
Something new to say of an old feeling

I just don't know what I can find to see
A way of time in real isn't for me
Reading of who, how world is now
Reading of what, why world is now

Who could explain reason I know
Fortune has many desires to play
What will tomorrow be of me
Something new to say of an old feeling

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Perfect Times

Perfect times, thoughts in mind
Once to find, now seems lost
Noone else moves my mind

To keep my life real, leave love
Hold night in place, find why
Grey skies are cool to watch
Sadness warms my touch

Perfect times, thoughts in mind
Once to find, now seems lost
Noone else moves my mind

Who is to blame truly now
For passed by towns of mine
How easy to leave
Some will never leave my heart

Don't know what would be new
Another move from you

Perfect times, thoughts in mind
Once to find, now seems lost
Noone else moves my mind

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Hear Me True

Hear me true as I do you, hear me true

Would be lovely to be young again
Return back in time with you again
Look as I did way back then
Feel how easy walking seemed to be

The art pics I make of myself
Keep my thought in tune with today
I may just make life my way and love
You may finally be here to stay

Hear me true as I do you, hear me true

I heard you sing a bit today, I notice
When you are in with another sound
Your age shows at times real nice
I can tell when you are close, who tells me

Something inside always could wake
To let me know you've sent something new
I need not spend my time in thought of you
You always had a way to hear me true

Hear me true as I do you, hear me true

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To Find You

To find a perfect calm
Look into a perfect wave
Think a perfect thought
Watch a perfect quiet

Move a perfect stone
Hear a perfect sound
In my perfect wait
My perfect peace

To find you

To find a perfect day
Sleep a perfect night
Hold a perfect way
Feel a perfect feeling

To find you

To find a perfect hello
Seek a perfect time
Reach a perfect together
Run a perfect mile

To find you

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